tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17615914652281518152024-03-13T04:00:57.049-07:00A Muslimah WarriorNot a writer, novelist or motivator. Just a normal human beingMWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.comBlogger146125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-14380139697507971782021-05-08T07:34:00.000-07:002021-05-08T07:34:50.811-07:00Flashback: A Short Escape To Rewind <p> Ramadhan 2010.</p><p>Memori yang selama tak akan hilang hatta ke hujung nyawa sekalipun. </p><p>10 terakhir Ramadhan yang terisi dengan menjaga Mummy di hospital, yakni turning point terbesar dalam hidup seorang insan bernama Nazual. * </p><p>It was then, the exact moment Allah sparks passion into my heart, to finally be open and curious enough to be in medical field thus pursuing the new passion till today. Was it sad? Definitely at first, I think that was my first time seeing Mummy crying and sad. Sampai ke bila-bila ingat saat tu, susah betul kalau sejenis photographic memories. </p><p>Ironicnya, Allah takdirkan jua diri ini incharge ward gynae dua minggu sebelum Raya. Every moment in the ward, memori tu berputar-putar. Especially bila jaga ibu-ibu terpilih, amanah untuk menjaga keadaan mereka bukan sekadar sakit dan pendarahan tapi termasuk jua emosi yang terusik. </p><p>Kadang-kadang bila ibu atau akak misi datang bagitahu, ada patient passing out POC, terus terusik di hati. Sambil-sambil keluarkan POC, sambil-sambil berdoa meskipun hati terasa dicarik-carik. Laju je nak masuk toilet lepas tu. Kalau assist OT, mesti terkeluar juga keluhan sakit padahal takde kaitan pun dengan diri sendiri. </p><p>Untuk ibu-ibu terpilih termasuk diri sendiri; </p><p>Suka untuk saya re-share tulisan Dr Mohamad Ali Al Hashimi dalam karyanya; The Ideal Muslimah. </p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;">One of the most prominent distinguishing features of the Muslim woman is her deep faith in Allah</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;">(SWT), and her sincere conviction that whatever happens in this universe, and whatever fate</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;">befalls human beings, only happens through the will and decree of Allah (SWT); whatever befalls a</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;">person could not have been avoided, and whatever does not happen to a person could not have</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;">been made to happen. A person has no choice in this life but to strive towards the right path and to</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;">do good deeds - acts of worship and other acts - by whatever means one can, putting all his trust</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;">in Allah (SWT), submitting to His will, and believing that he is always in need of Allah's (SWT) help</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;">and support.</p><p>Hikmah yang saya dapat sewaktu second trimester miscarriage Mummy adalah passion untuk belajar dan mengejar kerjaya dalam perubatan, Alhamdulillah. It does change me entirely despite taking super long period to finally reach that point. </p><p>Kerana setiap saat dan ketika dalam hidup ini, hanyalah dengan takdir Allah. </p><p>Yang ternoktah di langit, tak termampu dipadam di muka bumi fana. Dan semoga setiap kehilangan kalian, tersingkap hikmah yang jauh lebih manis dari kepahitan realiti. Just trust Him, the alMighty. </p><p>Dan semoga seorang Nazual juga terus kuat. Mama is sorry for failing you baby sayang. Let's meet in Jannah shall we baby? Ayuh terus mencari hikmah di sebalik kehilangan sementara ini. </p><p>* just a year after it, my parents divorce and subsequently my lovely Ayah (grandpa) passed away, it was totally devastating moments for me as each of it chained and linked to each other. Semoga Allah terus kuatkan diri like before. Amin <3 </p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>MWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-2646305198392209862020-10-01T21:35:00.000-07:002020-10-01T21:35:32.563-07:00Strong Women Aren't Hard To Approach <p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">"</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">She able to dine in by herself</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">She's able to get things she want by herself</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">She's independent lady, </p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Why would she need a man then? "</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">.</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">What a misleading concept of understanding. </p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">.</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">When Khadijah ra, possessed a vast of business, even one of the top businesswoman at her prime, why would she proposed to Prophet SAW? </p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">.</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Let's take things slightly out this for awhile, for us (inc me) to ponder upon. </p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">.</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">First, what's definition of strong women?</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Someone who possed strong personality wheres her voices, her opinions gave a great impact to society/public/politics?</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Someone who has her own stand, her own goals which not affected by criticism of her surroundings? </p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">or</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Should I emphasise how our society labelled strong women is?</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Stable job? Great car? Honda? Toyota? BMW? Bought using her own pocket money.</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Someone who do groceries by her own? </p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Someone who go anywhere without constant need of accompanies? </p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">. </p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">independent is not equal to strong</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">.</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">And being strong/independent aren’t wrong either.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">.</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Back to stories of Prophet Muhammad SAW and Khadija RA, it’s Prophet’s personality and potential that lead to the proposal. She made him as her business partner rather than her employee.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">And the subsequent stories after Rasulullah SAW received the first revelation, it’s Khadijah who calm him down, trust in every single words of him and became the first person to embrace Islam.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">.</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">She supports the dakwah until the end of her life, and yet played important roles in the beginning of the great history ever existed.</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Bukan senang untuk berkorban segala harta, dunia dan jiwa.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">But she made it, and thus became the explemary muslimah for all of us.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">.</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Okay here’s some personal opinions regarding prominent ladies as general.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Going tru several biographies of Queen Victoria, Empress of Russians, Marie Antoinette of France, Empress Wu Zetian, Empress Myeongsong etc cause the list will never end…..</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">.</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">The similarities of their stories were how they actually decided to fight the inequalities of women during their period of time, started with their husband actually (expect Queen Victoria)</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Disastified with incompetence of their husband/son in ruling the country, they eventually took over the throne either directly or indirectly and yeah, surprisingly brought a lot improvement of governance ( and that’s how they become prominent ladies)</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">.</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">But the so called feminism, is so empty. Sounds glorious outside like a shell decorated with lots of diamonds and pearls, but so empty inside.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">There’s no loyalty in their so called great stories.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">.</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">What I would to highlight in this post is;<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">NO, women don’t need coach bags, BMW, luxurious wedding/trips.</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Yang memerlukan semua itu bukannya wanita,<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Tapi si pengkikis duit.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Yang wanita perlukan hanyalah kesetiaan, dan kerjasama dalam menjadi sebuah pasukan yang hebat dalam membentuk unit-unit kecil yang akan bergabung menjadi bangsa yang maju kehadapan.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Kerana wanita yang hebat dan kuat itu, punyai misi dan moto hidup yang kukuh dan bukan sekadar terhias terlitup dalam erti kata cinta sahaja.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">.</p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; font-size: 12px; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;">Isunya sekarang, berapa ramai lelaki-lelaki yang hidupnya bermoto menjadi pewaris bangsa, bukannya sekadar hidup seperti kera di hutan.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></p><p class="p1" style="color: #454545; font-family: "Helvetica Neue"; 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Its been such a long break.<br />
I honestly drain out of energy to write a single sentence.<br />
But writing is one of the way to convey the stress.<br />
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Have been started my housemanship for about 1 month (approximately), 1 month of life as houseman.<br />
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Well, since our housemanship start during RMO, the workload reduced a lot.<br />
And we idk called as unfortunate enough to feel the hectic life as surgical houseman? LOL<br />
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And because of that, I tend to learn a little by day.<br />
It made me slower learner, and sometimes frustrating myself.<br />
Ini adalah contoh bila realiti tak selari dengan program set up in the brain.<br />
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I aim for an A, but my current performance only able to vibe up till B-.<br />
And today, I got emotionally affected with my shortcomings.<br />
Well, I might need a consultation later on how to improve myself (after I have done self reflection)<br />
But it takes courage to go forward and seek for help.<br />
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May Allah ease me.<br />
May Allah bless me with abundance of knowledge.<br />
May Allah made me the a grateful servant of Him.<br />
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Amin.MWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-85664539875017158252020-01-30T08:52:00.001-08:002020-01-30T08:52:16.683-08:00Dedicated Post: Suhana & Fatin<blockquote class="tr_bq">
<i>" Dan di antara mereka orang yang berdoa: " Ya Tuhan kami, berilah kami kebaikan di dunia dan kebaikan di akhirat dan peliharalah kami dari seksa neraka. Mereka itulah orang yang mendapat bahagian dari apa yang mereka usahakan dan Allah sangat cepat perhitunganNya." [2; 201-202]</i></blockquote>
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A short trip to friends' wedding sparked the light of lovely memorylane.<br />
Saat bas meluncur laju di atas jambatan Pulau Pinang, teringat hari-hari yang terpaksa ulang-alik Main Campus-Hospital Seberang Jaya, Penang. Paling epik time exam shortcase Medicine, thankfully I got mine in GH instead of Seberang. Penat okay travel jauh-jauh. Berapi yang exam Hospital Taiping baca ni.<br />
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Honestly, I still experienced some sort of flashbacks, that anxious feeling masa nak final exam. Kerap juga terbangun tengah malam, terus nak bangun, " Exam, study......" ter-froze kejap a few minutes (mamai-mamai) and then terus mengucap panjang.<br />
Setiap kali penjaga exam cakap; " You got 5 more minutes.." and eventually " Time's up.", disertakan sekali dengan hati yang remuk.<br />
Dan akhirnya flat.<br />Sedih, dan nak menangis. Tapi air mata tak terkeluar sebab dah habis tenaga untuk jawab exam.<br />
Nak kecewa pun tak mampu, sebab dah tawar hati dah dengan exam. Sebab dah tahu, efforts memang all out sampai squeeze sekali berat badan.<br />
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BMI drastically changed from underweight to severe underweight.<br />
Makan? Makan sekadar nak dapatkan pahala sahur dan berbuka puasa. Alhamdulillah ada member-member ' majlis perbandaran', siap sampai buncit depa (Ya Ampun).<br />
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Its feel like yesterday,<br />
Counting days to exam, that me anxious. Plus, mindset yang on repeats;<br />
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<li><i>Hang tak study lagi topik A (padahal dah plan nk study later)</i></li>
<li><i>Hang ni apo saloh info ni (mixed up stuffs)</i></li>
<li><i>Apa hang baco satu pun tak ingat ni (HAHAHAHAHA)</i></li>
<li><i>Wehhh sempat ke habis semua ni (Alhamdulillah with clear planning, I managed to cover all despite not so deep)</i></li>
<li><i>Pass ke aku nanti ni?</i></li>
<li><i>Boleh ke grad ni?</i></li>
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Melangkah keluar je exam terus rasa nak lumpuh, mashaAllah. Diri dihempap oleh soalan-soalan membunuh. </div>
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Dada yang terasa sesak dengan urusan duniawi itu, </div>
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Hinggakan tiada ruang untuk melepaskan nafas yang tertahan,</div>
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Dan saat hati sama merendah diri sama mengharap pada Dia,</div>
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Pada bantuan-Nya, pada pengampunan-Nya dalam sujudnya,</div>
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Dia hadirkan kekuatan untuk terus bangkit dan kelapangan.</div>
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It gonna be harder in future, ladies. </div>
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Ace it, plan everything carefully. </div>
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Jangan simpan stress etc sorang-sorang, find someone yang boleh jadi pendengar setia. </div>
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Yang boleh bagi support tak berbelah bahagi. </div>
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Yang tak pernah melupakan kalian dalam doa mereka. </div>
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Yang tidak mengharap sebarang balasan keduniaan, cukup sekadar kalian dipermudahkan urusan. </div>
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Last words, </div>
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Have faith in Him and strive for success.</div>
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No u-turn.</div>
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No regrets. </div>
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MW</div>
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Dear Hometown</div>
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MWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-44995578837447121142019-12-18T08:09:00.000-08:002019-12-18T08:09:35.585-08:00Persis Khaulah Al Azwar<div style="text-align: justify;">
"Kenapa akhawat kena physically strong? Kenapa dalam muwasafat tarbiyah, ada sihat tubuh badan? Akhawat rasa kenapa kita kena kuat?" - lontaran soalan dari penyampai tazkirah buat diri ini terkapai-kapai sebentar. Rasanya tiap kali talk, state of mind jadi terkapai-kapai jap sbb proses internalisation info yang kompleks sedang berlaku di otak, disertai kerut-kerut dahi. </div>
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Main point sesi tazkirah ialah perihal srikandi yang tidak asing lagi dalam sejarah Islam. </div>
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Khaulah al Azwar. </blockquote>
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Khaulah ini dari kecil dididik oleh ayahnya akan ilmu memanah dan berkuda. </div>
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<i>Jiwanya kuat</i>. Seperti fizikalnya. Susuk tubuhnya tinggi lampai dan tegap. </div>
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'Debut' Khaulah adalah sewaktu <span style="background-color: #f9cb9c;">perang Yarmouk.</span> </div>
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Ya. Khaulah ditempatkan dalam team logistik dan medik. Rawat tentera Muslim yang cedera. Sampailah berita saudaranya Dhirar al Azwar ditawan oleh musuh. </div>
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Kerana sayangnya pada saudaranya. Terus dicapai pedang dan berkuda, maju ke medan tempur tatkala tentera Islam hakikatnya sedang di ambang kekalahan menentang tentera Byzantine (Romawi). Skuad Rafe bin Umaira, melihatkan kemunculan " Pahlawan yang serba hitam penuh misteri ". Khaulah pakai jubah, bertudung litup, menutup mukanya cukup memperlihatkan mata yang penuh semangat waja. </div>
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Ketangkasan Khaulah ibarat 'suicide squad', tanpa gentar Khaulah menghunus pedang hinggakan pakaiannya penuh darah. Keberanian Khaulah membangkit semangat tentera Islam. Kemudian, tibalah skuad bantuan Khalid al Walid, menyaksikan kepahlawanan Khaulah. </div>
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Saat Khalid bertanyakan perihal identitinya, Khaulah hanya diam dan meneruskan perjuangannya. Okay part ni best, bacalah dengan penuh perasaan:</div>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">“Wahai panglima. Aku tidak mengelak darimu kecuali kerana rasa malu terhadapmu. Anda seorang panglima besar, sedangkan aku wanita. Tetapi. Aku terpaksa melakukan ini kerana hatiku sakit dan marah.</span></blockquote>
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Kagum dengan didikan Al Azwar, Khalid membenarkan Khaulah menyertai misi menyelamatkan saudaranya Dhirar al Azwar. </div>
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Perang kedua yang highlight nama Khaulah adalah <span style="background-color: #f9cb9c;">Perang Sahura</span>, juga perang dengan tentera romawi. </div>
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Tapi dalam perang ni, Khaulah pula yang tertawan oleh musuh. Team logistik dan medik ditawan oleh musuh dan diletakkan dalam khemah. Enggan dijadikan tawanan pihak kafir, Khaulah bangkit dengan strategi yang membuahkan hasil, bersama-sama dengan wanita lain, hanya menggunakan tiang dan tali khemah. </div>
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<i>Sebelah tangan menghunus tombak, sebelah lagi menghunus tiang khemah.</i> </div>
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Dan akhirnya bebas dari tawanan romawi. </div>
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Hebat bukan? Terpegun seketika dengan kekuatan fizikal Khaulah. </div>
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Bukankah Malaysia masih aman? Tiada perang yang sedang berlaku (di Malaysia) yang memerlukan seorang akhawat memantapkan fizikal sepertinya perang bakal tercetus di waktu terdekat.</div>
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Lalu diri ini termenung. </div>
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Scroll FB yang sedang hangat bercerita mengenai saudara Ughur. </div>
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Kemudian Rohingya. </div>
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Kemudian di India.</div>
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Belum lagi perihal Palestin dan Syria. </div>
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<i><u style="background-color: #a2c4c9;">Kita ini umat yang berbuih itu kah? Ramai tapi kekuatannya rapuh sekali.</u></i> </div>
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Ramai yang mengatakannya Islam, tapi perjuangannya perihal hawa nafsu dan tipu daya dunia. </div>
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Dan teringat perkongsian dalam satu forum; </div>
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Perihal seorang pelarian Syria. Sebelum tercetusnya perang yang bukan sekadar meruntuhkan bangunan, malah jiwa-jiwa yang tiada noda doa, dirinya seorang guru. </div>
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Dalam hidupnya, tidak pernah disangkakan perang ini terjadi. Tak tersangka akhirnya diri sendirinya seorang pelarian. Dan kata-katanya yang membuatkan hati ini begitu terjentik;</div>
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" ..tidak aku sangka perang ini terjadi. Kerana segalanya normal.....Dan aku yakin, di Malaysia juga boleh terjadinya perang...." [simplified version] </div>
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Yelah, Malaysia masih aman, pada hakikatnya Malaysia saban hari digemburkan lontaran idealogi-idealogi yang songsang dan permainan politik yang membuatkan rasa macam nak projectile vomiting. </div>
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Dengan pentadbiran baru yang saban hari menyentuh sensitiviti agama dan kaum.</div>
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Berbalik pada persoalan asal; mengapa?</div>
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Tanya pada diri. </div>
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MWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-29102301920600834422019-08-19T06:20:00.000-07:002019-08-19T06:27:15.460-07:00Sebuah IkhtilatAssalamualaikum WBT<br />
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Its been super long-long hiatus.<br />
I'm really disappointed with my own self (huhuhu) tapi apakah daya.<br />
Menulis dengan mata hati, lebih sukar dari sekadar menulis dengan mata pena. (Acececeh)<br />
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Actually after habis je final pro exam medical school hari tu (FINALLY GRADUATED ALHAMDULILLAH), berbual dengan my BFF. Tengah-tengah berbual (kitaorang banyak berbual topik yang membangun jiwa gitu <strike>koya</strike> ), so I decided to write a story about ikhtilat.<br />
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Kenapa ikhtilat?<br />
Sebab at first, isu ni memang besar sangkaan saya lah (murrobi duk asyik highlight pasal ni, kita pun alert sikit) tapi tak sangka, memang isu ikhtilat ni SANGAT BESAR dan BERAT.<br />
Masa pre-clinical tak rasa sangat, sebab boleh je study sendiri-sendiri. Kalau study sesama pun, dengan member-member yang rapat je.<br />
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Tapi bila masuk clinical years, I realised how difficult to keep it.<br />
Then, terinspirasi lah untuk menulis sebuah cerita contengan.<br />
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Amaran: Banyak medical jargon, dan sesi membakar diri (termasuklah writernya)<br />
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I'm open for any suggestion atau teguran, sesungguhnya yang baik itu datang dari Allah, dan yang buruk juga datang dari Allah, dalam menyempurnakan kejadian seorang manusia yang serba kekurangan.<br />
Mohon maaf atas kekhilafan diri ini. Peace no war.<br />
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Sebuah Ikhtilat's Chaptersssssss<br />
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<a href="https://muslimahwarrior.blogspot.com/2019/08/sebuah-ikhtilat-i.html" target="_blank">Sebuah Ikhtilat I</a><br />
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p/s: Update will be 3x per week (depending on my schedule) :)MWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-50739903200247942162019-08-19T01:36:00.002-07:002019-08-19T06:37:14.647-07:00Sebuah Ikhtilat I" Grouping untuk next rotation dah keluar. Kau dah tengok belum list name groupmates kau?" senyum yang penuh meaning. Mesti ada hidden agenda, tak pun, future groupmates....Pap!..terus Qhuz view email yang attached dengan list name untuk rotation Obs & Gynae.<br />
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Group A3<br />
Qhuzairi Ahmad.<br />
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Groupmates A3. Satu satu nama groupmates dibaca. Sampai nama yang terakhir, dahi Qhuz berkerut. Man....bala besar datang.<br />
" Kenapa aku satu group dengan singa ni?" senyum paksa, menampakkan gigi ditunjukkan kepada member yang ketawa dihadapannya. " Seriouslah bro, rotation ni dahla penuh roller coster of emotional and hormonal, kena mengadap perempuan tu. Man."<br />
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" All the best bro. Aku pasti kau memang akan first honour punya Obs & Gynae. Dengan perempuan tu dalam group, mantap habis." Rauf masih bersisa ketawa, kali ini bertepuk tangan.<br />
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Group A3.<br />
Qhuzairi Ahmad<br />
Nur Farisha Bakri<br />
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Please not in this group. Oh Lord please.<br />
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Addawiyah Munirah Abdul Rahim.<br />
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Berkali-kali dibaca namanya. A3. A3. Lima saat kemudian, jeritan berskala 10 okta kedengaran dari blok Kolej Kediaman Melor.<br />
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" Shima, kenapa aku kena satu group dengan playboy ni? Oh Tuhan, hari-hari meletus gunung berapi kat hospital kalau macam ni!" digocang-gocang teman baiknya, dalam keadaan panik ibarat Jepun mendarat di Tanah Melayu, dalam meneruskan propaganda slogan 'Asia hanya untuk Asia'.<br />
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Hampir pening digoncang-goncang, Hashimah memegang tangan Adda dan diletakkan ke atas katil. " Engkau ingat dia nak ke satu group dengan kau, Ratu Singa?" terus terdiam jasad di hadapannya. " Just be normal, professional ke. Kau tak perlu nak buat baik ke apa ke dengan dia." perlahan-lahan suggestions diberikan. Dia yakin temannya ini tengah serabut dalam kepala. Maze yang berkotak-kotak mungkin dah dalam frontal lobe brain Adda ni.<br />
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Takdir ni misteri.<br />
Banyak kali dah pesan kat Adda jangan cari musuh, tapi yang dilarang juga yang dia buat.<br />
Mamat playboy tu pun satu, dah tahu orang alergik dengan dia, janganlah dinyalakan api permusuhan. Dah dinyalakan, dia tambah pula minyak tanah supaya api tu besar.<br />
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Ironi. Selama 4 tahun selamat je diaorang ni tak satu group kecil. Padahal probability untuk diaorang satu group punya lah besar. Dalam banyak-banyak rotation, rotation paling hormonal juga diaorang satu group.<br />
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Fate is laughing at both of you, Adda and Qhuz.<br />
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" Kau imagine kalau aku kena on call dengan dia? Kat labour room. Tak awkward ke namanya?" Adda menjuling mata ke atas sambil membayangkan situasi 'perang' yang bakal tercetus. " Siapa nak study dengan aku? Kalau aku kena prepare slides presentation dengan dia macam mana weh? arghhh..." dibaling bantal busuk ke dinding.<br />
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Hashimah hanya mampu membalas dengan senyum basi. " Entah-entah nanti end of rotation, ada yang melalak mandi tak basah, tidur tak lena..." sekilas dijeling Adda, " kalau drama Melayu, orang yang macam ni end up kahwin. Tahu?"<br />
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Pandangan mata laser dihala ke arah jasad yang sedang bersiap untuk tidur di sebelahnya. " You dare....."<br />
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Selimut ditarik cepat-cepat, seram nak bertentang mata dengan Ratu Singa ni. " Aku cakap drama Melayu, kau tu drama Melayu keee......"<br />
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Of course a big NO. Fate does laughing at me.<br />
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Alergik aku bukan sebarangan alergik. Mungkin secebis je element love dovey dalam permulaan perang, definitely not starting with such beautiful fate between me and him.<br />
Simply, I hate his overbearing friendliness and people can misunderstand that.<br />
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Lelaki dan perempuan should not be too close.<br />
Let alone couple yang date bagai.<br />
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A clear line, no grey area.<br />
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" Light off please Adda, dah lah tenung aku macam tu, esok kita dah start kelas. Tidur.... cepat." akhirnya jasad ditenung bersuara.<br />
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Light off.<br />
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P/S: Its been super long hiatus mode, that despite being so busy with classes (no longer as students) and researches going on (and weddings to attend) , I will always note down plot/story that I definitely want to finish. And as promised, MY FIRST WRITING after so long (Oh Tuhan); <a href="https://muslimahwarrior.blogspot.com/2019/08/sebuah-ikhtilat.html" target="_blank">Sebuah Ikhtilat</a>.<br />
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Please continue to support me (despite my poorer performance)<br />
Thank You<br />
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MW<br />
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<br />MWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-83623824485271683862018-12-31T19:06:00.000-08:002018-12-31T19:06:05.538-08:00Bridging Hope For Better<span style="background-color: white; font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; font-size: 12.61px; text-align: center;">﷽</span><br />
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2018 had passed magnificently, with such an 'exceptional' ending.<br />
After calming myself, I was reading a book when I came across a simple hadith;<br />
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" Ajaib sungguh orang Mukmin itu! Segalanya serba baik dan hal itu tidak dimiliki kecuali oleh orang Mukmin. Apabila ia mendapat kesenangan, maka dia pun bersyukur. Dan sebaliknya, apabila ia mendapat kesukaran, maka dia pun bersabar, hingga apa yang dihadapinya selalu akn mendatangkan kebaikan baginya." (Hadith Riwayat Muslim)</blockquote>
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And then, I was asked to share regarding my new year resolution, which was filled with lots of blank spaces.<br />
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Cause honestly, I'm not so good with words. There are tiny-non-connecting aim of the year, which one of them is graduating by 30th June 2019.<br />
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One particular point I like from the sharing is;<br />
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"Between the weak and strong Mukmin, the strong one is better than another."</blockquote>
It shoot my heart so diligently that I should re-adjust the focus of my resolutions.<br />
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So I figure out that I should write this on a piece of paper, and try to connect each of these. Alhamdulillah, it does help.<br />
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Do try on your own.<br />
For each of your resolutions, always ask why and how. It helps to clear things.<br />
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Comparing between 2018 and 2019 resolutions, I believe every single of us, are moving forward in every stages of life according to our own pace.<br />
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And again, I will try my best to update my blog as well reply to your emails.<br />
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May Allah bless all of us, steadyfast us onto His religion.<br />
Stay shining in 2019 girls.<br />
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Assalamualaikum.<br />
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Nazual Zulkepli<br />
1105<br />
01012019MWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-14598518940338494742018-10-30T10:10:00.002-07:002018-10-30T10:20:47.956-07:00Semester IV: Reflection of the Dews<span style="background-color: white; font-size: 12.61px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">﷽</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">I wake up and stared at the ceiling for a while, and finally about 5 minutes managed to get myself out of bed, went straight to bathroom for wudu' (ablution).</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">A lot going through my mind.</span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">The unfinished 20++ articles from last night.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">The unfinished 3+ blog posts to be published.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">The 2-days untouchable Projek Nota</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">The 2 days untouchable and un-reply D's email on guidelines for Projek Nota.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Update on bills and November's rent.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Return Oxford Emergency Handbook.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Call Abah.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Call Mummy.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Call Angah.</span></li>
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<i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">and the list goes on and on.</span></i><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">The moment I turn on data, the whatsapps coming in beep beep. Honestly I feel like ignoring all those texts but I should not.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">And there is an instagram PM from my little dearest N.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: yellow; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">SHE FORWARD ME MAKE UP TUTORIAL.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Soon after I'm done with my morning routine, I watched the video duration of 15mins +. Not even half of the video, questions kept coming non-stop.</span><br />
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<strike><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">What is this for?</span></strike><br />
<strike><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">What is her motive?</span></strike><br />
<strike><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Why I waste my 15 mins watching this?</span></strike><br />
<strike><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Why did I at first, play on this video?</span></strike><br />
<strike><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">What the meaning of this make up tutorial for me?</span></strike><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">And here's the highlighted part;</span><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Why would I waste 30mins + (which I assume cause the girl in that video just showing a short version of her daily make up) putting make up on my face, when I can actually read the whole alMathurat for that period of time?</span></i><br />
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Why would I spent so much in the morning, knowing I need an extra time for clean up later in the afternoon for Zuhr prayer?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">and,</span><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Why should I put (literally quite thick) make up when I personally not fond of it? (Like for everyday)</span></i><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Because I always believe,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">" A beauty of a lady is not based on her face but rather her heart. "- MW</span></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">and beauty of the heart eventually reflected with her <b>good character and attitude towards herself and others. </b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Like the one the hadith reported by Sahih Bukhari;</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">The Prophet said, "A woman is married for four things, i.e., her wealth, her family status, her beauty and her religion. So you should marry the religious woman (otherwise) you will be a losers."</span></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Why would Rasulullah SAW highlighted religious woman?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Because apparently,</span><br />
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<i><u><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Wealth can turn to nothing all of sudden. </span></u></i><br />
<i><u><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Family status can be revoked by the authorities for whatever reasons. </span></u></i><br />
<i><u><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Beauty fade by time, come on you are getting old by days (nobody get younger)</span></u></i><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">And religious women, have firm belief and gonna survive in any sort of struggles that Allah might decreed upon her (inshaAllah).</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">And religious women are not those who wears the long hijab only, they are ladies who believe in Allah, and practice Islamic way in every single aspect of her life as much as she could. Especially the crucial part of being a Muslimah is her faith onto this religion of Allah. This is only can be attained by learning AND understanding the deen.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">At lot of us, not really understand the deen (which as well include me astaghfirullahaladzim, may Allah protect us and bless us with more knowledge and understanding on deen).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">By practicing the real deen, she will have such a great character.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><b>This is solely reminder from myself to myself,</b> to be reminded that I <u>should not be blinded</u> by my nafs to get prettier by each day (obviously we are ladiesss). But instead to be such 'beautiful' lady, I should as well learning, understanding and practising the deen as much as possible.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">May Allah bless me with beautiful heart,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">So I could attend His beautiful Garden of Paradise.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">p/s: I have no issues with those applying make up everyday cause I as well put some BB cushion on my face to avoid shiny oily face later in the afternoon plus lipbalm (cause I hate when my friends mentioned I looked like anaemic patient).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Like I mentioned, this is solely a reminder for myself which I think great to be shared with everyone.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Wallahualam.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Nazual Zulkepli</span><br />
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<br />MWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-43042232028227989832018-10-18T22:39:00.000-07:002018-10-18T22:39:18.477-07:00Semester IV: Unresolved Internal Conflicts Part I<div class="p1">
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It's already two minutes passed twelve o'clock, and I am still staring at the ceiling fan with a blank space of mind.<br />
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Peer pressure during adulthood vibes are quite distressing, baru terasa kat diri sendiri.<br />
Terasa yang sampai masa sujud dalam solat, berulang-ulang minta Allah cekalkan hati. Tabahkan hati. Allah jentik sikit saja Nazual, on this and that particular matter je ( banyaklah tu)<br />
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Lama sesi termenung, tak tersedar pun bila terlena sebenarnya.<br />
Terbangun balik around 2 o'clock in the morning, hakikatnya masih lagi mengantuk tapi mata tak nak terpejam. Ah, sudah ini parah. Segera, dicapai tafsir di meja belajar.<br />
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Buka Surah Al Rahman, untuk mendidik diri erti sebuah kesyukuran.<br />
Terlalu banyak hakikatnya nikmat dan rezeki yang telah Allah limpahkan. Tapi diri sendiri yang gagal menghayati.<br />
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<i>This is all because of one particular stressor; one of my schoolmates gave birth. (Another one cause honestly I lost count on how many of them already became mother) Although I genuinely happy for them, there is a tiny part of my heart. Cloudy and unclear, so shy to show her own self; that there is part my desire is to become a mother as well. (This excessively motherly love OMG its so distressing for me)</i><br />
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This is all started as I had my O&G rotations, when I looked at the mother (expected mothers) expressed their excitement for their lovely babies, their radiance is soooo mashaAllah very beautiful. But that desire wasn't that intense until I had my neonatalogy unit postings. Every morning was an excitement, to go around the babies (checked them, fold their 'bekung' and cuddled them). I have never thought of being so happy while holding them (although sometimes I avoid holding them, afraid of any legal consequences). They are so adorable mashaAllah.<br />
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Then, I was thinking;<br />
<i>Ini hanya perasaan seorang wanita yang masih bujang, tak ada calon, masih muda, masih belajar dan masih belum mengerti mengenai kehidupan dewasa hakikatnya.</i><br />
<i>Bagaimana pula perasaan mereka-mereka yang yang sudah pun bekerjaya (dan masih belum ada calon atau masih belum berkahwin) atau yang sudah pun berkahwin (tapi masih belum dikurniakan zuriat)?</i><br />
Terlalu subjektif untuk digariskan dan diloreskan dalam satu perkataan.<br />
" Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul."<br />
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<strike>Then, I was thinking one particular issue just before going for bed.</strike><br />
<strike>and forgot it the next day (LOL)</strike><br />
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Until the day I watched Mizz Nina is sharing almost about the same thing; about zuriat.<br />
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Zuriat/Children is not a simple topic dear readers.<br />
If you ever notice, cerita perihal zuriat ada diceritakan dalam al Quran.<br />
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I only only notice this during sharing with Prof Haniffah. (MashaAllah, that's why we should attend lot of sharing sessions, to be reminded as well to learn more and more)<br />
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<u>Stories from Prophets</u><br />
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I will try to keep this short, but meaningful as possible.<br />
The first story of Prophet that pop-up in my brain cells when this was mentioned is <b>Prophet Zakaria as. </b><br />
As mentioned in surahtul Al Imran, verse 38-40.<br />
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" Disanalah Zakaria berdoa kepada Tuhannya seraya berkata: " Ya Tuhanku, berilah aku dari sisi Engkau seorang anak yang baik. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pendengar doa.<br />
Kemudian malaikat (Jibril) memanggil Zakaria, ketika dia sedang berdiri melakukan solat di mihrab, (katanya): " Sesungguhnya Allah menggembirakan kamu dengan kelahiran (seorang puteramu) Yahya." yang membenarkan kalimah (yang datang) dari Allah, menjadi ikutan, menahan diri (dari hawa nafsu) dan seorang nabi yang termasuk keturunan orang yang soleh.<br />
Zakaria berkata: " Ya Tuhanku, bagaimana aku boleh mendapat anak sedangkan aku sangat tua dan isteriku pula seorang yang mandul?" Allah berfirman: "Demikianlah Allah berbuat apa yang dikehendaki-Nya."</blockquote>
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MashaAllah, the moment I read these ayat, that intense feelings of happiness flooding in my heart. SubhanAllah.<br />
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Then, stories of <b>Prophet Ibrahim AS</b> (if you ever notice the Prophet that have been mentioned the most in Quran is Prophet Ibrahim, which signified that his Sabr/patience is so great that Allah mentioned him numerous times)<br />
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Suratul As Saffat; 100<br />
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" Ya Tuhanku, anugerahkanlah kepadaku (seorang anak) yang termasuk dalam orang yang soleh."<br />
Nabi Ibrahim as berdoa memohon dianugerahkan zuriat. </blockquote>
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And guess what, Allah said in the next ayat;<br />
Suratul As Saffat; 101<br />
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"Maka Kami beri khabar gembira kepadanya dengan (kelahiran) seorang anak yang sangat sabar (Ismail)." </blockquote>
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Amazing ain't?<br />
The intersection points from these two Prophets' stories are: Dua'/Prayers and Sabr. And Allah gave them such blessings that not only He gave them children/zuriat, as well He gave them the most unexpected blessings of having such son(s) with beautiful characters (which is MashaAllah, bukan senang nak dapatkan anak yang soleh/solehah).<br />
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<u>Mufti Menk</u><br />
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I was going through Mufti Menk's opinion on this particular matter and found few videos (which is so motivating). Here are list of points to be shared:<br />
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<li>The biggest test Allah ever give to married couples are not having any offsprings/children</li>
<li>Offsprings = paradise = Jannah </li>
<li>The key of the test (in what ever sort of test from Allah) is Sabr and Patience package. It's ultimately designed for us to draw us closer to Him. </li>
<li>Imagine if all of us being given all the things we ever wanted, can you be assure that you will be an obligate person?</li>
<li>The door of Sabr, all the struggles you had been through out the test will help you in Jannah where Allah will compensate your Sabr for something better (unlimited blessings from Him!!) </li>
<li>and we should be grateful with blessings that Allah had given to us, but still we need to pray asking for it. Bukan sekadar just lay back and say 'Alhamdulillah.'</li>
<li>Pengetahuan Allah lebih tinggi dari kita sang manusia yang kerdil ini, percayalah apapun takdir yang menimpa, adalah yang terbaik untuk kita. Sekiranya kita diuji dengan tiada rezeki utk ada anak sendiri, jangan bersedih. Allah tahu kita akan sangat struggles untuk besarkan anak buat masa sekarang. Raising kids nowdays is not a joke guys, I met a lot of my patient struggles so much in raising their kids. </li>
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I have also planned to talk on maternal instinct but seeing this gonna be super long sharing, let's keep it for the next one shall we? </div>
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Suka untuk Nazu highlight di akhir article ini:<br />
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<li>Doa Nabi Ibrahim. Tak rasa pelik ke? Nabi Ibrahim tahu yang dirinya sudah tua dan isterinya mandul, tapi insist juga untuk berdoa dan memohon zuriat. Sounds so unrealistic right? But his core belief that Allah SWT will eventually grant his prayer is MashaAllah so great that I don't think we (in such modenisation) could ever do that. We are so hanging to the factual things (at least I did, most of the time) How is that possible? But Allah said in the ayat, "Kun faya kun" Suka juga untuk Nazu highlightkan di sini, perihal kita-kita semua anak-anak muda yang telah pun menginjak dewasa, kita selalu terlupa perihal kekuatan sebuah doa dan keyakinan pada Tuhan. Sedangkan doa itu senjata orang Muslim. </li>
<li>Pemberian putera yang soleh. Readers, looks around you. Perihal-perihal pasangan yang berkahwin, yang belum dikurniakan anak. Betapa sesetengah mereka tersangat inginkan zuriat, which is very hard situation for them. But always always remember that whatever decree Allah has bestowed for you is indeed the best plan for you inshaAllah. Have sabr, and wait for the right time. Jangan pernah mengalah, find a way out to solve it (medically hospital actually provide services to those who failed to conceive after 3 years of trying, just go and present yourself to the mana-mana KK yang berdekatan and ask for referral to nearest hospital yang provide fertility treatment)</li>
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For myself, and anyone out there yang experience the same things. </div>
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Have sabr as well, it's natural that we all feel that way. To be a great mother, to have such beautiful kids. To feel happiness just by looking at a baby (your nephew or nieces or anyone's babies literally), it's normal. Allah SWT has given us (the women) with such blessings of this maternal instinct even before we are having our own kids. </div>
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Why? Simply because we are creature that full of love (Auww). </div>
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It's okay to feel a bit pressured, as long you know how to deal with it effectively and positively of course! It's the pressure that made me us alive. Imagine life without any pressure, its gonna be super boring life (entah-entah bernyawa pun tidak).</div>
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Again, have Sabr and never stop praying for His blessings. </div>
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Semoga kita semua sentiasa dilindungi dan dirahmati Allah. </div>
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Semoga kita semua diberikan ketabahan dalam menghadapi segala bentuk ujian dunia.</div>
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Dan semoga kita semua hakikatnya sampai ke destinasi yang dicita, syurga yang kekal selamanya. </div>
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Wallahualam.</div>
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The long undue post.</div>
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Nazu is deeply sorry for such a longgg hiatus, I did try to make time for this but usually failed. Semoga Allah memberikan Nazu kesempatan masa dan dicurahkan idea untuk berkongsi. </div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Kehangatan GE14 masih terasa, masakan tidak untuk kali pertama semenjak kemerdekaan Tanah Melayu, yang mengalami pelbagai perubahan dari segi segala struktur, bertukar kepimpinan.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Dan dalam keadaan tergesa-gesa jugak balik ke Penang, memandang cuti yang diumumkan tidak mampu mengatasi 'semangat' para lecturers yakni specialists untuk mengajar kami-kami yang kelak suatu hari menjadi protege mereka. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Dan bagi diri Nazu sendiri, ruginya kalau asyik cuti. Bila nak belajar, bila nak tadah segala ilmu yang tak mampu dicari di mana-mana buku rujukan. </span></div>
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<i><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Ku mengharapkan Ramadhan</span></i><br />
<i><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Kali ini penuh makna</span></i><br />
<i><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Agar dapat kulalui</span></i><br />
<i><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Dengan sempurna</span></i></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Dan hujung minggu yang sudah dirancang untuk mengisi secara mentally dan rohani dengan persiapan menyambut Ramadhan Kareem. </span><br />
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<small class="english" style="box-sizing: border-box; color: #777777; font-size: 18.2px; line-height: 1;">"O you who have believed, decreed upon you is fasting as it was decreed upon those before you that you may become righteous -" [2;183]</small></h2>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Selalu dengar, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">I always heard of that. Even I heard it played many times inside my own head. Kadang-kadang wonder kat mana button stop replay. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">And I believe that Allah understands the need of us more than we understand ourselves. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">And He knows that we can fast throughout the month of Ramadhan.</span></div>
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<i><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Selangkah demi selangkah</span><br style="color: #333333; font-family: sorts-mill-goudy; text-align: justify;" /><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Setahun sudah pun berlalu</span><br style="color: #333333; font-family: sorts-mill-goudy; text-align: justify;" /><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Masa yang pantas berlalu</span><br style="color: #333333; font-family: sorts-mill-goudy; text-align: justify;" /><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Hingga tak terasa ku berada</span><br style="color: #333333; font-family: sorts-mill-goudy; text-align: justify;" /><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Di bulan Ramadhan semula</span></i></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Antara lontaran ahli panel sewaktu forum adalah; " Allah telah menurunkan perintah untuk berpuasa sebelum umat Nabi Muhammad lagi, tapi kenapa Allah perintah-kan umat Nabi Muhammad untuk berpuasa (wajib) sebulan di bulan Ramadhan?"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Kenapa? </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">" Puan-puan, adik-adik sekalian, harus di sini kita memahami asbab Allah menjadikan puasa sebagai ibadat dan kelebihan bulan Ramadhan berbanding dengan bulan-bulan yang lain."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Antara hikmah-hikmah berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan</span></div>
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<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Ketibaan Ramadhan disambut di seluruh pelusuk dunia secara serentak oleh umat Islam. Kesatuan hati dan niat tulus ikhlas ini dilakukan semata-mata untuk mengabdikan diri terhadap Allah SWT.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Dengan diwajibkan berpuasa, umat Islam tidak kira yang miskin mahupun kaya, akan melalui ujian yang sama (kelaparan, dahaga, kepenatan etc). Dengan berpuasa, kita akan terasa insaf dan bertimbang rasa serta saling mengasihi antara satu sama lain.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Amalan berpuasa melahirkan jiwa yang selalu taat kepada Allah, justeru kita akan merasai ketenangan dan ketakwaan. </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Puasa itu sendiri separuh dari kesabaran. </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Orang yang berpuasa lebih disayangi Allah, selamat daripada api neraka dan menghapuskan dosa-dosa kecil. </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Kedatangan Ramadhan ada keistimewaannya, kerana dianjurkan solat terawih, di samping diwajibkan juga zakat fitrah ke atas golongan yang mampu. </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Ketibaan Ramadhan menandakan pintu-pintu syurga, ditutup pintu-pintu neraka dan dirantai-kan syaitan. </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Malam Nuzul al Quran (17th Ramadhan) merupakan saat penting al Quran diturunkan dari langit ke dunia untuk menjadi pendoman manusia hingga ke akhir zaman. </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Terdapatnya Lailatul Qadar, iaitu satu malam yang padanya terdapat saat penuh keberkatan menyamai 1000 bulan (83 tahun 3 bulan) ganjaran pahalanya daripada Allah SWT.</span></li>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">* sumber dari Indahnya Hidup Bersyariat by Dato' Ismail Kamus</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Pernah Nazu disoal, kalau syaitan dirantai kenapa masih ada orang berbuat jahat?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Masa kecik-kecik tak faham sangat tapi bila dah belajar ilmu agama. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Baru faham, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Untuk berbuat jahat; syaitan hanya selaku catalyst perlakuan/perbuatan tersebut. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Reactants untuk perbuatan dosa itu, kelak jua nafsu dan kejahatan yang menguasai diri. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Which literally means; kalau syaitan dirantai tak bermakna perbuatan jahat tu terhenti. </span></div>
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<i><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Puasa satu amalan</span><br style="color: #333333; font-family: sorts-mill-goudy; text-align: justify;" /><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Sebagaimana yang diperintahNya</span><br style="color: #333333; font-family: sorts-mill-goudy; text-align: justify;" /><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Moga dapat ku lenturkan</span><br style="color: #333333; font-family: sorts-mill-goudy; text-align: justify;" /><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Nafsu yang selalu membelenggu diri</span><br style="color: #333333; font-family: sorts-mill-goudy; text-align: justify;" /><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Tiada henti-henti</span></i></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Back to the discussion forum. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Ustazah highlightkan lagi; " Apa pengakhiran sebuah Ramadhan yang patut kita capai?"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Taqwa.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Apa itu taqwa?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Benteng. Benteng iman dari segala bentuk ancaman akidah.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Terutamanya dunia yang makin tenat kini, dengan idealogi liberalisme, pluralisme, feminisme. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">.</span></div>
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<i><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Tak ingin ku biarkan Ramadhan berlalu saja</span><br style="color: #333333; font-family: sorts-mill-goudy; text-align: justify;" /><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Tuhan pimpinlah daku yang lemah</span><br style="color: #333333; font-family: sorts-mill-goudy; text-align: justify;" /><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Mengharungi segalanya dengan sabar</span><br style="color: #333333; font-family: sorts-mill-goudy; text-align: justify;" /><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Kita memohon pada Tuhan diberikan kekuatan</span><br style="color: #333333; font-family: sorts-mill-goudy; text-align: justify;" /><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Ku merayu pada Tuhan diterima amalan</span></i></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Sedikit inti pati forum yang ingin dikongsi. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Terlalu banyak input yang cuba mendaftar masuk ke dalam minda, dan sedikit cuba diserap dalam hati, untuk diterjemah sebagai ibadah kelak.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Sesungguhnya Nazu juga hamba-Nya yang penuh kekurangan.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Semoga Allah kuatkan kita semua, untuk menjadi hamba-Nya yang soleh solehah.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Amin.</span></div>
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<i><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Selangkah demi selangkah…</span><br style="color: #333333; font-family: sorts-mill-goudy; text-align: justify;" /><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Dengan rahmatMu oh Tuhanku…</span><br style="color: #333333; font-family: sorts-mill-goudy; text-align: justify;" /><span style="color: #333333; text-align: justify;">Ku tempuh jua</span></i></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Wallahualam. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Nazual Zulkepli</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Georgetown.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">2110130518.</span></div>
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MWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-59178754338856739692018-05-04T16:55:00.000-07:002018-05-04T16:55:37.276-07:00Semester III 4th Year: Blok D The Overflowing LoveSemoga setiap patah yang tertulis ini, menjadi satu peringatan untuk diri sendiri supaya sentiasa menjadi manusia yang bersyukur dan tawaduk.<br />
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We are officially starting the O&G posting, starting at GH. Plus, with all of the bad feedback from previous group, I am honestly a bit of worried if I would experience certain difficulties with the staffs, but alhamdulillah that so far all went well. Obviously, there is no perfection in this dunya right. There are still room for improvement, but as a medical student, I would just keep my mouth sealed. (but sometimes I just randomly voice out my inner monologue and yeah, someone did hear it.)<br />
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Alhamdulillah that Allah ease my learning.<br />
I remember on the first day of posting, I still can't get a hold almost of the clerking and examination. Tho the lecturer already gave us live demonstration on it, I still unable to apprehend it well inside my brain.<br />
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My answering technique still crap, but Nana reassure us this is only the starter and still lot of time for learning opportunity.<br />
Lagi-lagi bila dah jadi group leader ni, sometimes I rasa overwhelm untuk satisfied-kan group member, which later on I akan remind myself the sole purpose of living in this dunya, to please Allah azza wa jalla only and only.<br />
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Plus, I just back from the short trip to Cameroon Highlands. (Alhamdulillah that we are having fun and managed to get back to the track after the difficulty. Will update soon if ada kesempatan since I have limited free time lately)<br />
Penat dan keletihan masih menguasai. Niat untuk berpuasa hari Isnin terbatal since dah ada tanda-tanda untuk flu. And the PH on Tuesday does help me a lot in recovering! Alhamdulillah.<br />
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Back to the story.<br />
On Wednesday, I prepared a postnatal case. (IOL due to the SGA)<br />
Tapi itulah, bila clerk postnatal case ni takleh nak practice abdominal palpation. Jadinya, case ditolak mentah-mentah oleh lecturer. ( But I do learnt a lot from her case tho!)<br />
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And again, I still unable to grasp the finding. As my previous post, I am not a visual learner. I am kinestatic learner. I have to practice and practice until I mastered the technique.<br />
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On Wednesday, I read Aida Azlin's weekly love letter on her struggles for the past few days. Her struggles were sort off the same as I am (All of us struggle in our life afterall) and her reminder was indeed so close to us. Pray and pray.<br />
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Doa! Doa!<br />
Sentiasa titipkan doa dalam setiap langkah kita! Kerna Allah sahaja tempat kita bergantung harapan.<br />
Rehatkan diri dengan menunaikan solat sunat.<br />
And guess what, my case is finally selected for presentation.<br />
Anddddd my lecturer taught me one to one. Twice!<br />
First time was quite nervous and second time was brilliant (not my performance la ofcourse haha).<br />
MashaAllah finally I able to grasp on the physical examination.<br />
Ada orang sekali dengar and practice dan power technique, but we are human afterall.<br />
Kita tak pernah sempurna, and if you found that you are lack of something, have the effort to learn! Bukan sekali, bukan dua kali bahkan berkali-kali.<br />
( And because of this, I sometimes quite irritated with people who claimed they couldn't make it, which is astaghfirullah we never know their struggles afterall.)<br />
Have a trial and error!<br />
This is the time for you to learn and acknowledge of your mistakes! Through mistakes you know on which part need to be improve.<br />
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Wallahualam<br />
Semoga hari-hari mendatang kelak dinaungi rahmat Allah SWT.<br />
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Nazual Zulkepli<br />
0755050518<br />
Georgetown<br />
<br />MWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-55264560147650654762018-04-22T03:26:00.000-07:002018-04-22T05:42:16.954-07:00Semester III 4th Year: Pit Stop Trip to Baling <style type="text/css">
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“ Life is a struggle, and the struggles are real.”</div>
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Dah masuk tahun keempat pengajian. Lagi setahun lebih perjalanan ini. Terasa masih diawan-awangan.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span><br />
Terasa seperti semalam struggle final exam ALevel, struggle interview untuk kos pengajian perubatan. Dan seperti semalam juga struggle untuk dapatkan scholarship.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></div>
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Terasa seperti semalam jua, fail paper exam. Meskipun dah penat stay up hatta tak tidur untuk mengulang kaji.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-converted-space"><i><span jsname="YS01Ge" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">The struggles I'm facing</span></i></span><span class="Apple-converted-space"><i><span jsname="YS01Ge" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">The chances I'm taking</span></i></span><span class="Apple-converted-space"><i><span jsname="YS01Ge" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Sometimes might knock me down but</span></i></span><span class="Apple-converted-space"><i><span jsname="YS01Ge" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">No I'm not breaking</span></i></span><span class="Apple-converted-space"><i><span jsname="YS01Ge" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">I may not know it</span></i></span><span class="Apple-converted-space"><i><span jsname="YS01Ge" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">But these are the moments that</span></i></span><span class="Apple-converted-space"><i><span jsname="YS01Ge" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">I'm going to remember most yeah</span></i></span><span class="Apple-converted-space"><i><span jsname="YS01Ge" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Just got to keep going</span></i></span><span class="Apple-converted-space"><i><span jsname="YS01Ge" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">And I</span></i></span><span class="Apple-converted-space"><i><span jsname="YS01Ge" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">I gotta be strong</span></i></span><span class="Apple-converted-space"><i><span jsname="YS01Ge" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Just keep pushing on, 'cause</span></i></span></blockquote>
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Mengapa sering kali terasa perjalanan ini terlalu panjang?</div>
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Kita memerlukan seseorang untuk mengajak kita terus mara.</div>
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<i><span jsname="YS01Ge">There's always gonna be another mountain</span></i><i><span jsname="YS01Ge">I'm always gonna wanna make it move</span></i><i><span jsname="YS01Ge">Always gonna be an uphill battle</span></i><i><span jsname="YS01Ge">Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose</span></i><i><span jsname="YS01Ge">Ain't about how fast I get there</span></i><i><span jsname="YS01Ge">Ain't about what's waiting on the other side</span></i><i><span jsname="YS01Ge">It's the climb (yeah)</span></i></blockquote>
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It took me a while to notice how our hiking trip taught us on this. </div>
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As everyone really start wondering, why medicine why not others?</div>
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And why did not everyone in our circles seems to understand the struggles of medical student?</div>
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I myself find it hard to express my thoughts to the family members (aunties, uncles and cousins) because they don't really understand the struggles. Even few of my friends yang takde anyone in medical background also mentioned of the same things. </div>
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Bayangkan course yang berbeza tu macam level kesusahan untuk hiking. Tak semua mountain shares the exact same difficulty. Some are easy to climb and some aren't. Some took less than a hour, some take hours to arrived. Some even took months to arrive okay, like Mt Everest etc. </div>
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Start of the journey, about half an hour, you started sweating (macam marathon 1000km) and wondering why did you agree for this. Or worst part, you eventually stop. </div>
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First year, second year journey. Belajar segala anatomy and physiology. Basic physiology, then wonder kenapa kena belajar benda-benda biomedical ni? Chemistry stuff, tu tak kira lagi ada lecturer hipster explain physiology pakai theory physics.</div>
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It just an introduction. A little bit of future waiting ahead. </div>
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Cantiknya.</div>
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Tenangnya.</div>
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MashaAllah tak terungkap kata-kata. </div>
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Tapi cantiknya tak bermakna tak hadapi kesusahan time kat atas puncak. </div>
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Nazual Zulkepli</div>
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MWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-30619234630976725272018-01-23T18:21:00.000-08:002018-01-23T18:21:01.977-08:00Semester II 4th Year: Break Phase II<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I keep browsing the pictures, mashaAllah it's so great that the planned trip went smoothly and most important that everyone is safe and happy with each other. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Masih pulang dengan kaki dua, tangan dua, mata dua.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Alhamdulillah. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Time flies so far, I was arranging my personal task aka personal goals to be achieved within this two weeks break. </span><br />
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<li>Revision Public Health I</li>
<li>Pre-read and study Emergency Medicine (since dah dapat soft copy buku setebal 2000++ IDK bila lah nak baca)</li>
<li>Revision Radiology ( I read on cervical injury radiology, tetiba mata tertukar jadi <span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">@-@)</span></li>
<li>Elective planning! (Gotta settle it before new blok)</li>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And senior yg baru graduated baru sahaja dapat posting housemanship yesterday. Keywords utk berjaya mendapatkan posting yang kita mahu adalah: internet yang laju bab kak Syu. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">All the best to seniors! Semoga terus kuat and tabah untuk housemanship (which also known as the most drilling period ).</span><br />
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Honestly, I am kind of not really into long holiday, sebab bila hiatus lama sangat sampai dah lesu nak membakar semangat baru.<br />
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Reading and reading non-medical stuffs. And recently one of my seniors passed me a pdf on ' The True Secret' so lemme finish it first pastu kita review how that book okay? Which I hope dapatlah habiskan sbb selalunya memang patah semangat sikit bab baca buku-buku fikrah ni. Alaahai. I read with hearts, bukan sekadar baca. I read in hope that I will able to improve myself as a Muslim.<br />
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Cookinggggg. Trying all different sort of dishes, gear up la sikit since lately dah makin okay and better in term of timing. I mean, my allergic sort of attacking me in all directions. HAHA, so by hook, memang kena cari masa untuk masak sendiri. ANDDD I MANAGEEEED huhuhu. Even cooked 2 different dishes everyday. How? Nanti kita share bersama-sama tips-tips yang power-power, kutip and baca from bloggers lain.<br />
Apa guna jadi bloggers, kalau tak baca blog orang lain? Kan?<br />
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Alright, morning dews dah kena hempap dengan hujan di pagi hari.<br />
Semoga semuanya sentiasa dalam rahmat Tuhan.<br />
InshaAllah.<br />
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Nazual Zulkepli<br />
1020 | 240118<br />
Besut, Terengganu.<br />
Malaysia<br />
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Multifactorial, I can't point out single factor, nanti haters tertrigger.</div>
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I recall my own experiences, during my first year.</div>
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Freshman.</div>
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Alone.</div>
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Went to Winter camp sbb mmg nak pergi. </div>
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I don't have any friends, even my usrahmates jumpa gang tinggalkan I sorang-sorang.</div>
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Worst, all of ex-colleagues went to another winter camp and they took a picture and shared it. </div>
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Berapi kejap bilik.</div>
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Tak terbuka heater pun dah panas. </div>
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So the only option I have is getting myself out of the comfort zone,</div>
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Step forward and make new friends as much as possible. </div>
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Guess what, I managed. </div>
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Begitu. </div>
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But yeah, my circle of friends semuanya seniors (HAHAHAHA)</div>
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But then, as time goes by, I made friends with my batchmates as well. </div>
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It's not about friends I would like to emphasise in these sharing. </div>
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It's about why would Winter camp have been such special memories for me. </div>
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First: Knowledge thirst.</div>
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I have always been interested in gaining new knowledege.</div>
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Even just a simple sharing ada banyak ibrah yang kita boleh serap dalam kehidupan harian.</div>
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Pernah dengar?</div>
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Sayap malaikat menaungi sekelompok manusia yang sedang berbicara soal ilmu?</div>
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Feeling dia MashaAllah, nyaman sekali. <br />
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Sebab travelling ni bukan la selesa sgt. Even dpt bilik yang sangat selesa sekalipun, tak akan mampu sama dengan bilik sendiri bukan?</div>
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Dekat wintercamp takdela 24J duk dengan tazkirah. </div>
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Ada outdoor and indoor activities, yang sentiasa terselip dengan ibrah-ibrah untuk kita perhatikan and take it out semasa sharing. </div>
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Sometimes, certain ibrah doesn't necessarily big things. Most of the time, it always the simplest things that we took for granted. </div>
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And there will be certain group yg akan ckp, </div>
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Pergi travel memana pun sama je. </div>
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It's different honestly. The environment sgt berbeza. </div>
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Third: Membina minda dan menyiapkan diri sebagai pemimpin di masa hadapan.<br />
Sy selalu cakap kat diri sendiri.<br />
Kalau nak belajar, kat Malaysia pun boleh, indeed Malaysian universities gained numerous great achievements in the world.<br />
So make a different.<br />
Join society where you can feel the intense as a leader.<br />
Sewaktu wintercamp, kitaorg banyak didedahkan dengan hal ehwal negara yang sepatutnya diketahui semua org. <br />
Leadership skills. Management skills. Public speaking skills. Debate skills. <br />
Semua skills boleh digarap time wintercamp, depends on your own efforts. <br />
Kalau setakat hmmmm buat circle sendiri dgn diri sendiri. Tak mahu ke depan untuk sesi sharing, macam mana nak garap all the skills. <br />
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Fourth: Falling snow, & hot chocolate.<br />
Sebenarnya kan sepanjang join wintercamp ni kan, tak pernah lagi snowing time tu. <br />
Tapi hot chocolate sentiasa rasa. <br />
Lagi ramai, lagi meriah sesi hot chocolate ni.<br />
Selalunya time sharing hati ke hati (acececeh), fasi-fasi akan provide hot chocolate.<br />
Selalunya tak cukup satu mug, curi-curi masuk dapur minta dengan akhawat tengah duty if ada extra.<br />
hihi<br />
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Sekian sahaja sharing hari ini. <br />
Semoga seorang Nazual makin rajin untuk menulis (dan study).<br />
Wallahualam. <br />
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MW<br />
1810131217<br />
Besut, Terengganu. </div>
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MWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-70677194215856377462017-11-25T09:52:00.000-08:002017-11-25T09:52:03.768-08:00Memoirs of SPM: Worst Subject<span style="background-color: white; font-size: 12.61px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">﷽</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Satu persatu saya ingat peristiwa tersebut, bila cikgu serahkan booklet soalan Additional Math Form 4 Peperiksaan akhir tahun. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">49. Dan nak dijadikan cerita, markah exam akhir tahun akan masuk sistem SBP wheres, nanti akan keluar list ikut ranking seluruh Malaysia. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">For sure la kan, tak pernah pun jejak top ranking, mmg level ribu-ribu je lah. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Tapi masa tu terus laju air mata turun.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Sebab subjek elektif yang lain semua failed kecuali Prinsip Akaun. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Tambah Add math pun failed juga, memang 'rosak' dan 'rabak' ranking batch and SBP. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Dan kata-kata cikgu Addmath memberi nasihat dan semangat yang tersirat. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">"Awak menangis, merayu minta even 1 markah pun saya tak nak bagi." padahal masa tu tak cakap apa-apa pun just air mata tu laju, tak sempat nak letak divider kat hujung mata je. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Terus buat self-reflection. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Memang tak sempat study, sebab masa cuti tu jaga Mami kat hospital.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Tak cukup dengan tu, Allah takdirkan diri sendiri menyaksikan kelahiran adik, dalam keadaan dirinya yang telah kaku. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Dan bila SN serahkan kepada Nazu, seribu satu rasa datang ketuk pintu hati. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Dan saat bila Allah balikkan hati, untuk study bersungguh dan further study dalam medicine. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">To be an Obstetrics and Gynaecologist. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Bukan untuk menghalang dari perkara yang terjadi pada diri, tapi untuk menjadi seorang manusia yang bisa menghulur tangan kepada ibu-ibu saat mereka kehilangan permata hati. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Kerna itu yang Nazu nampak dan saksikan dengan dua mata yang Allah kurniakan.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Perihal seorang ibu yang kehilangan anak. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Mungkin diri ini tak memahami lagi. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Kerna hanya mereka yang bergelar ibu yang mampu merasainya. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">End of flashback. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Dan sepanjang cuti, Nazu habiskan dengan revision, revision dan revision.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Adalah join tuisyen, tapi tak suka sgt bila slot Addmath, since cikgu yang mengajar tu pandang rendah pada diri ini. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Hanya kerana Nazu takde rupa, tak genius dan bukan dari sekolah elit. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Tapi dalam diri, sungguh tak kisah dengan semua itu. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Hanya disibukkan dengan tujuan dan moto hidup sendiri, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Ada matlamat yang harus dicapai, dan tempias-tempias negatif seperti ini hanya dicanang dan dibuang dari bertuntas dalam diri. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Peperiksaan pertama di Tingkatan 5.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Markah yang cukup membuatkan Nazu terkejut. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Siapa sangka?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Dari 49% kepada 98% dalam mata pelajaran Addmath. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Dari ranking yang sekadar biasa-biasa kepada Top 10 sekolah, dan okay lah ada improve dalam SBP. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Ibrahnya di sini:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">1. Matlamat</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Ada perbezaan dalam hidup, kerana yang membezakan kita dengan orang lain adalah matlamat hidup kita. Bila kita ada matlamat, kita akan strive towards the goals habis-habisan. Gitu. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">2. Usaha</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Selalu kan kita dengar, Allah nak tengok usaha, bukannya hasil. Tapi hakikatnya, bila kita dah usaha mesti lah kita dapat bukan?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">3. Jangan pernah give up. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Selalu je ulang benda ni, sebab tengah peak period of demotivating dalam medical school, selalu je rasa penat takdelah sampai nak give up tapi Allahu penat dia Allah je tahu. Tapi itulah, makin kita jauh makin kita usaha nak dapat bukan?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Sekian Sahaja.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Apa yang baik datangnya dari Tuhan, dan apa yang buruk jua dari Tuhan, untuk membezakan Pencipta dan ciptaan. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Wallahualam. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Nazual Zulkepli </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">0150 26112017</span>MWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-49328595678207427912017-10-07T01:50:00.003-07:002017-10-07T02:02:04.807-07:00Semester 1 4th Year : Station 3<div style="text-align: left;">
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Finally, I am done for medicine posting, at least for this semester. I do feel better than previous semester where I was totally lost and no direction of learning. The lecturers just literally campak ke department medicine, and belajar sendiri-sendiri. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Sampai sekarang rasa tak puas hati for previous semester's postings. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Alhamdulillah that situation improving plus finally I have someone to count on in my groupmates. Someone I can rant on things happened, someone I can story on handsome DRs in the wards, or any patient that annoyed me. But so far, patient semua cooperative Alhamdulillah, just that ada la a few yang reject taknak Q&A sessions. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Kecewa kena reject depan ramai-ramai patient adalah perasaan yang lagi teruk dr kena clash dengan boyfriend (awk pernah kena clash ke? tak. Ohh pastu? Sy tengok kwn2 je pastu mendalami kesakitan diaorg Lols)</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Tapi dalam kekecewaan itu, ada masa yang hati berbunga-bunga dengan cooperative patients. Yg end up bagi semangat kat kita untuk terus berusaha, dan seterusnya berjaya menjadi seorang doktor yang bukan sekadar merawat fizikal. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Sepasang suami isteri memasuki bilik consultation. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Si isteri berkerusi roda. Middle aged Indian lady. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Si suami bertongkat. Late middle aged Chinese gentlemen. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Si suami yang menolak sendiri si Isteri. Dalam keadaan yang serba payah untuk berjalan. Hinggakan doktor terpaksa berpindah tempat, untuk memudahkan mereka. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">(Doktor hensem. Siap ada halo kat atas kepala, baik dan sangat gentlemen. tapi bukan pilihan hati)</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Si isteri telah pun bertahun menjalani rawatan HIV. I checked her blue book, and surprised by her strong wills in fighting this illness. Dengan komplikasi jangkitan, onset of DM, dyslipidaemia dan hypertension dah pun develop, but she still fighting strongly.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Akak admin tu bisik kat si Suami, find another lady to take care of them. Dan jawapannya membuatkan seorang Nazu terkelu. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">" Tak nak, saya manyak sayang sama dia." </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Berkali-kali scene ini berulang dalam ruangan memori. Dan tidak ada satu pun yang terjadi tanpa pengetahuan Allah. Setiap saat yang kita lalui kelak, bukan lah suatu kebetulan malah tersirat segala ibrah yang meminta kita untuk berhenti sejenak, ambil iktibar dan meng-asimilasikan dalam sebuah kisah bernama kehidupan. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;"><i>Berhentilah dari bersedih hati. </i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;"><i>Berhentilah mencari kesempurnaan dalam hidup yang serba kekurangan ini. </i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;"><i>Berhenti dan kiralah nikmat yang telah Allah limpahkan dalam hidup ini.</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;"><i>Berhentilah dari melihat yang kau rasakan bahagia sedangkan melimpah bahagia yang Allah berikan pada diri ini.</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Tiga pegawai penjara mengiringi seorang banduan, yang diimport fresh dari Mainland untuk follow up dan permohonan tukar pusat rawatan. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">" Listen here, you deserve your medications and healthcare treatments. This is your rights. Don't keep everything by yourself, let them (the wardens) know about your illness so you could have your medications."</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">- clear, tanpa nada telegraphic yang tersekat-sekat. Kata-kata seorang pakar kepadanya dan tiga pasang telinga yang sedang berdiri jelas mendengar kata-katanya. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">" Not all hospital have ID unit, we can only write a memo for his medication but he still need to be here for check ups." tapi warden-warden tu insist juga untuk tukar pusat rawatan. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Dan tak habis-habis nak initiate conversation dengan seorang pelajar perubatan yang tgh blur, dan tak berminat nak dekat ceretera-ceretara ini. Pak cik warden, tak perlu nak lari dari kenyataan, dengar je apa yang doktor pakar cakap - whispering Nazual.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">" Some people never learn." his words as soon the patient leave the room. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Kagum. Itu sahaja yang mampu aku tuturkan. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Bilamana masayarakat sekeliling memandang mereka ibarat sampah, </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Mereka-mereka ini yang ada knowledge, </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Ada kerjaya dan dihormati masyarakat (currently deteriorating due to kewujudan masyarakat BODOH SOMBONG),</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Mereka memandang pesakit-pesakit ini sepertimana manusia biasa. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Yang hanya kekurangan immuniti. Seperti mana mereka-mereka yang Allah pilih dengan kelahiran yang terus diuji dengan sakit immuniti lemah. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Dan seperti mata dibuka dengan luas,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Walau dengan hanya beberapa jam di klinik, </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Dengan drama Denyut Kasih Medik yang tak habis-habis dekat ward,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Whispering Nazual; kenapa ramai sangat doktor handsome?</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;">Astaghfirullah. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;"><i>Seorang Muslim, setiap langkah yang diatur, haruslah bersandarkan Allah semata-mata. </i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;"><i>Peringatan untuk diri sendiri.</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;"><i>Yang langkahnya makin lama makin berat. </i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;"><i>Semoga hakikatnya kita sentiasa dalam redha-Nya. </i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;"><i>Dalam setiap langkah, </i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;"><i>Dalam setiap saat,</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;"><i>Dalam setiap lontaran hati yang kelak akan dikira di akhirat kelak. </i></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="background-color: white;"><b>Tuhan, jadikan aku persis al Hadid dalam mengharungi dunia faana ini.</b></span></span><br />
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Mengadap CT radiograph dengan penuh tanya soal dalam otak. </div>
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" I am so tired. Like seriously so tired."</div>
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" Everyone here is tired." sindir aku. </div>
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Terasa panas sangat dengan kenyataan itu. Aku tak tahu kenapa saat itu. Tanpa menoleh. Tanpa rasa bersalah. Aku tuturkan saja kata-kata aku, dengan harapan semoga yang menuturkannya mendapat mesej tersirat, ' Shut your mouth.'</div>
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" Alright, I know you are more passionate and work hards...." patah-patah perkataan yang aku kira, akhirnya membuatkan otak aku decide untuk bagi Cranial Nerve VIII paralysed sekejap. </div>
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Nafas ditarik sedalam yang mungkin. </div>
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Saat neurone-neurone CN VIII di-paralysed untuk seketika, neurone-neurone di bahagian Frontal Lobe cepat-cepat bergabung tenaga dengan limbic system untuk suppress activation of anger station, dan activate response ' Relaks man, this is just nothing okay.'</div>
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+Compared to your efforts, which is claimed as to too much? </div>
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+When you actually pushed your brain to answer questions and physically forced your weak body to move around, seeking for a knowledge. </div>
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+I am also tired, fatigue, loss of energy. </div>
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+Feels like the cardiac output is not doing well as my brain need more oxygen so they could work harder to learn and memorise those knowledge if possible permanently. </div>
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Ah nyamanya sekejap, setelah dimasak secara berturut-turut dari pagi sampai ke tengah hari. </div>
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" I work as hell, because I know I'm lacking in lot of things."</div>
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Demi Tuhan yang menguasai langit, sejujurnya tiada hari yang dikira tanpa air mata sebagai peneman. Bukan kerana kepenatan sahaja, tapi kekecewaan pada kemampuan diri, yang bagi diri sendiri masih mampu untuk lebih maju dalam pencapaian akademik. Setiap hari sebelum tidur, tabiat untuk evaluate pencapaian diri sendiri akan terlaksana. </div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Dan soalan ini selalu timbul,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Sedang Nazual berdiri seperti tiang kayu di tengah-tengah klinik, Nazual tengok sekeliling.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Banyak pengalaman yang dicedok saat posting di department ophthalmology dan ENT sebenarnya. Ilmu yang paling padu, bagaimana untuk menahan diri dari menangis sebab frust dengan kebolehan sendiri (HAHAHAHA)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Dan hati pun tersentuh.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Pastu kecewa lagi.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Tapi sampai bila nak kecewa? Allah suruh bersyukur bukannya berdukacita. Okay back to the main topic.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Mungkin sebab melalui telinga dan mata, kita belajar. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Orang kata dari mata turun ke hati kan. Gitu. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">So mulalah sesi mencari jawapan untuk diri sendiri. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Sedarkah kita, sehebat manapun seseorang itu, sebanyak mana sekalipun ilmu yang dia ada, saat dia lahir dari rahim ibunya, dia lahir dalam keadaan yang serba kekurangan. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Dia lahir dengan zero knowledge. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Dan proses pembesaran berlaku, yang membolehkan seseorang itu memperolehi ilmu pengetahuan mengikut kadar yang dikehendaki-Nya. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Dan Allah jadikan pendengaran, penglihatan dan hati supaya kita semua bersyukur. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Bukankah dengan mengetahui facts yang kita dilahirkan dengan zero knowledge, dan dibandingkan dengan keadaan sekarang, terlalu banyak nikmat yang Allah berikan.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Subhanallah. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Pada sudut pandang Nazual sebagai pelajar perubatan, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">" Segala kerosakan pada mata, contohnya kanta. Bukan kanta yang kita guna untuk belajar Sains tahun 4 tu ye readers sekalian, kanta ini akan bertindak balas bergantung kepada jarak objek yang dilihat. Cataract ataupun orang Melayu panggil selaput mata, adalah satu keadaan bila lens yang clear mcm gelas tu berubah jadi tak clear macam batu marble warna putih? ( opacification of the lens ) Cataract bukanlah satu penyakit, tapi hakikatnya suatu hari nanti, kita semua memang akan ada cataract.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Dan cataract adalah the common causes of blindness. Blindness. Fullstop.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Bayangkan Allah tarik nikmat melihat. Allahu tak terbayang betapa gelapnya dunia. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Rata-rata mak cik pak cik yang Nazual jumpa, akan cakap susahnya hidup bila mata dah tak nampak. "</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Nikmat mata dan telinga yang Allah berikan. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Dan gunakan lah nikmat-nikmat ini untuk mendekatkan diri kepada-Nya. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Bagaimana?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Okay jom kita baca tips-tips yang Allah bagi dalam ayat An Nahl yang ke 79 dan seterusnya. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Wallahualam.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Nazual Zulkepli</span></div>
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</style>MWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com0Kangar, Perlis, Malaysia6.440633 100.198370899999996.1882035 99.875647399999991 6.6930625 100.52109439999998tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-20348186083624964142017-07-19T23:22:00.002-07:002017-08-20T02:19:16.322-07:00The Captain of Journey<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Study 5 minit.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">- life have change a lot since then, numerous assignments and case write ups, numerous lectures and revision need to be completed, numerous stairs and wards, clinics need to attend to, leaving me such a skinny and cengkung medical student that wanted more time so I could sleep happily</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">and yeah, most of my friends are graduating, changing tittle from Ms to Mrs, from single and now forever being with someone else. (eventhough honestly, Allah kan ada dengan kita since kita belum jadi baby lagi, kenapa pula single forever? - Nazual's typical thinking)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Tipu lah kan tak jealous, tengok member dah graduate. Yang pasal changes of status tu tak lah jealous sebab, sebab rasa mcm benda tu rimas je having someone attached to you for 24H. Ke tak? As a free spirit person, I would love to wandering around myself. Hahaha. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: xx-small;">I know certain of us, feels so demotivated soon knowing most of you colleagues graduate early (even some of them are younger than you but still they are graduating early). Nazual rasa the exact feeling bila semua kawan baik time sekolah rendah (yang end up still together sampai waktu kolej) lah, kawan masa Uni-lah, semua dah graduate and dah start cari kerja. Ada yang dah start kerja. Kadang-kadang tak faham pun kenapa demotivated sangat. (Too much of thought on this, why would emotion is too complicated?)</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: xx-small;">The struggles just for the sake of a slip of paper, recognition of our hard-works ain't?</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Mungkin rasa macam kenapa lah dragging sangat course ni?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">I have all of those thinking and yet too disappointed with myself. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Sedihnya when you finally realised growing up have become such a pain. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Sedihnya bila sedar semangat yang membara suatu tempoh dahulu makin malap dibawa diri sendiri, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Ibaratnya segala ujian (termasuklah exams, quizs, assignments dan thoughts lamanya nak graduate) seperti air, sedikit-sedikit memadam api yang membara. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Dimana hilang penuhu bunsen yang pernah memetik, dan menyalakan semangat itu hinggakan barisan penemuduga, barisan cikgu-cikgu pernah bangga hingga berdiri menghadiakan senyuman suatu ketika dahulu. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">" It might be long, but who's care. It's my own journey." His words stroke my head like shooting arrow. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Kenapa kita concern pasal orang lain, as in concern in term of giving out negative vibes to ourselves. Mana boleh samakan apple dgn apple kan? (eh) </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">There is no pathway with such a smooth and enjoyment to be relax throughout it. Even yang dah graduate tu pun undergoes a great obstacles in order to be how they are now. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">So instead of rasa demotivated, apa kata take it positively. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;"><b>One day it will be ours. </b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: xx-small;">Sama juga dengan yang kena repeat papers or even repeat years. </span><br />
<span style="background-color: magenta; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Never think you as a failure, nobody is born as a failure. </span><br />
<span style="background-color: magenta; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">It's only a failure if you are down, and you can't get up from it. </span><br />
<span style="background-color: magenta; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Its okay if it took such a drag of your time, while others make it fast,</span><br />
<span style="background-color: magenta; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">because,</span><br />
<span style="background-color: magenta; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><b>You are the captain of your own journey. </b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Okay, cuba buka tingkap, gelap tak kat luar?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Kalau gelap, cuba cari bintang-bintang.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Kalau tak gelap, boleh tunggu beberapa jam sampai kat luar tu gelap.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Tengok bintang-bintang yang cantik tu,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Tak semua sama bukan?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: xx-small;">Sama dengan kita manusia, </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Yang Allah jadikan pelbagai bentuk, rupa secara fizikal, mental dan rohani.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Jangan samakan kita dengan orang lain, sebab hakikatnya kita diciptakan berbeza antara satu sama lain. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Appreciate ourselves, appreciate people around us.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">And be grateful of His blessings. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: x-small;">Don't entrust your dream of anything aside of Him, because afterall, Allah is the best planner. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: xx-small;">Wallahualam. </span></span><br />
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Terhenti jari dari terus mencatat nota, terus mengadap kalendar. Ah, puasa dah nak dekat.<strike> Puasa ganti tak habis lagi. Alarm! Panic Alarm!</strike> First day puasa ada end of rotation long case assessment. Oh tidak! Tapi case write up dengan revision masih meninggi, meraih perhatian untuk disiapkan secepat mungkin. Ah, kenapa waktu terasa begitu sempit?<br />
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Sekilah memandang comforter, dan akhirnya bertapa secara berbaring di bawah comforter. Buku-buku masih bertaburan. Laptop tak off. Nota seizure and epilepsy masih belum mencecah separuh.<br />
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I just wanna sleep. and get a ahead of this laziness. Bukan selalu bermalasan study ni.<br />
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Dan berkali-kali dikejutkan di tengah malam.<br />
Pukul 1.30 pagi.<br />
Pukul 2.30 pagi.<br />
Pukul 3.20 pagi.<br />
Ah sudah, patut ke bangun dan sambung study? Tapi comforter lagi menarik memandangkan hujan lebat di luar rumah.<br />
Pukul 4.05 pagi terbangun lagi. Ini memang petanda suruh bangun dan study.<br />
Bergerak ke hospital pukul 6.45 pagi, lebih kurang. Dan jalan di Penang yang tak pernah tak jammed.<br />
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Entah kenapa, terasa rindu sangat kat Mami dengan Abah. Mungkin Mami dgn Abah bangun tahajud dan mendoakan diri supaya tidak malas dan menjadi seorang yang lebih berguna. Mungkin. Cause I am super lazy right now.<br />
Doa yang mengalir dari kedua-dua orang tua, terasa memenuhi ruang masa hari ini.<br />
Berjaya clerk tiga patient sekali dengan PE. Masuk OT, even tak tengok pun operation, but yeah. Standing while trying to squeeze out all about Hepatobiliary stuffs and Upper GI bleeding, sbb surgeon garang kemain. (Tak garang pun. Tapi rasa bodoh kalau takleh jawab soalan like seriously. I don't mind being dummy, it just too frustrated that I wasted His nikmat after such duas, begging to give a chance on this pathway.) <br />
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Dan seketika saya terkedu. Pernah saya merasakan penat, sebab masa tu memang tengah demam dan terpaksa berada di hospital turun naik turun naik sampai banyak kali nak pitam. Dan akibat terlalu penat, tak sempat nak siapkan homework. Merintih memohon di waktu pagi hari, diberikan kekuatan dan semangat untuk terus berjuang.<br />
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Dan hari ini,<br />
Allah kabulkan doa itu dengan mengirim pesakit yang hampir sama. Terkedu. Lama terfikir kenapa Allah kirimkan patients ini. Untuk mengingatkan kembali saat pertama kali saya memilih untuk sambung belajar dalam bidang perubatan.<br />
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Obstetrics and gynaecology.<br />
Dan hari ini, Allah gerakkan hati saya, untuk memeriksa seorang banduan. Mengingatkan saya betapa manusia berhak diberi peluang meskipun disalah guna berkali-kali. Tiada hak untuk seorang manusia menyatakan haknya ke syurga atau ke neraka, kerana kita tak tahu keadaan kita sampailah saat sebelum kita meninggal.<br />
Berjaya clerk patient 2 orang dengan penyakit yang hampir sama.<br />
Dan merayau dalam operation theatre.<br />
Rasa terisi, walaupun penat bukan main.<br />
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"Mak cik tengok kamu mula-mula, mak cik teringat dekat cucu mak cik. Kurus macam kamu, pakai spek macam kamu." sambil gosok-gosok bahu kanan saya. Dan mata yang mencari anak mata yang kerinduan itu ditatap sedalamnya,<br />
" Saya pun rindu nenek saya."<br />
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Bila orang tanya, tengah buat apa.<br />
" I am enjoying my medical school. In my own way."<br />
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Bilamana kau terasa penat atau hilang arah tuju, berhenti dan berehat untuk mencari arah tuju. Macam mana kita drive hari-hari mengadap jammed (yang memenatkan dan stress-kan kita), kita berhenti bukan? Kalau terus 'D' bukan ke nanti makin bertambah masalah. Dan kalau sesat, kita akan berhenti di bahu jalan, bukannya terus memandu dalam jalan yang sesat.<br />
Dalam hidup, ada banyak jalan untuk sampai ke destinasi akhir, bukannya satu jalan je ada. Hatta nak pergi Mekah pun boleh naik flight, naik kapal or jalan darat.<br />
Apatah lagi destinasi yang hakikatnya hanya dipandang secara keduniaan oleh orang ramai, bergantung kepada 'jenis' kaca mata yang digunakan untuk memandang.<br />
Berhenti seketika 'N' then baru jalan balik 'D'.<br />
Sekian.<br />
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Nazual Zulkepli<br />
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Dalam keadaan terhuyung hayang, digagah diri ini untuk ke ward. Clerking patients.</div>
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Penat yang menguasai diri kadang-kadang membuatkan diri ini mengalah dan berehat di separuh jalan. </div>
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" Mak Cik, saya nak duduk boleh? Mak cik selesa?" apapun yang saya nak buat, first thing is patient's concern. Sewaktu di Dublin, itu yang diterapkan. </div>
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" Consent and patient's comfort is the first of all. You failed that then you failed for the whole exam."</div>
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Unfortunately, I rather go step by step. Perlahan menapak, perlahan internalised segala information. Bukan untuk menjadi top-scorer student, tapi menjadi bakal doktor yang punyai empati dan berpengetahuan, which in return strike back to me. </div>
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Usai long case exam, masuk ke sarang bilik, meneruskan lebihan kerja yang masih bersisa. Penat masih terasa hingga termenangis saat sujud. Dan seraya hati dan tangan menadah doa dari Yang Berkuasa, diberikan cebisan kekuatan untuk meneruskan hari-hari mendatang. </div>
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Dibalas member dengan panjang berjela.</div>
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Mengingatkan aku bahawa setiap jalan itu tiada yang mudah dan tidak dirintangi halangan. Andai menghadapi halangan-halangan, ingatlah bahawasanya itu adalah ubat dan penguat cinta Sang Tuhan kepada hamba-Nya. Dan berkali-kali dia bilang, bahawa suatu hari nanti aku akan menjadi seorang doktor yang berjaya. </div>
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Terngadah seketika membaca bebelan mak cik ni sorang. You are not alone Nazu. You got such a great support at the back. </div>
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Dengan kudrat yang bersisa, diri ini memohon pertolongan teman. Tapi jawapan yang diberi cukup untuk diri ini menilai siapa teman siapa rakan. Sudahlah berpura-pura, diri ini penat nak menghadap manusia yang bertopeng-topeng ini. Dan saat sujud terakhir, gagal menahan air mata. </div>
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' Nazual, you got to hold this. Nobody will do it for you. You got to fight even nobody there to support you. Get up. Chin up. You gotta fight this. Left alone the fact that you are being dumped, at least Allah is there. Allah yang memudahkan urusan. Allah jua-lah yang menyembuhkan sakit dan duka lara. '</div>
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Berdiri sendirian membuatkan saya tertanya-tanya, bagaimana ibu-ibu tunggal yang berjuang sendirian? Bagaimana nasib anak-anak yatim yang dibiar berjuang dengan kerah yang sedikit?</div>
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Bersyukurlah manusia. Terlalu banyak nikmat yang telah Allah limpahkan kepadamu. </div>
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Tangan masih terus menaip case write up yang dateline-nya esok sambil cuba recall wajah dan perbualan dengan patient tersebut, dalam keadaan hati yang masih sebu dengan exam long case Medikal pagi tadi.<br />
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Tak tersangka sampai termenangis depan lecturer.<br />
Disappointed. Demotivating. I feel so useless after presenting my patient's case.<br />
Maka keluarlah segala dementors yang berbentuk lontaran fikiran,<br />
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<i><br /></i><i>" Kau ni incompetence sangat. Benda simple macam itu pun kau tak tahu. Murmur pun tak pandai nak beza ke? "</i><i>" Kau ni attention seeker ke perempuan? Dah sampai menangis depan lecturer, sampai termuntah dalam ward sebab kiasu? " </i><i>" Weh kiasu tak bawa kau ke syurga perempuan."</i></blockquote>
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To be honest, setiap hari dementors ni datang melawat. Tengah-tengah check patient, 'diaorang' datang menjenguk. Ikut hati nak je baling botol air pink yang duk heret, supaya nyah untuk selama-lamanya.<br />
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TAPI GAGAL.<br />
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Dengan symptoms makin menjadi-jadi. Dengan lethargy sampai banyak kali hampir pitam tengah-tengah ward. I need Bcomplex supplement, in addition to my Vit C and fish oil supplements.<br />
Masih dalam proses nak adaptasi dunia klinikal perubatan Malaysia, which is sangat menenatkan dan sangat packed sampai tak tahu kat mana lagi nak curi masa.<br />
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Maka itulah sebab utama tak dapat nak reply segala emails pertanyaan pelbagai serta meninggalkan blog berhabuk.<br />
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Oh berbalik kepada tujuan utama hari ini, split personality Hahaha.<br />
Hari ini salah seorang member datang dan bagitahu perkara yang sama setiap kali readers baca blog,<br />
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" Kalau kita tak kenal Nazual in person, imaginasi kita untuk Nazual yang tulis blog ini adalah opposite dengan real person."<br />
Dan Nazual hanya mampu ketawa kecil.<br />
Bukan seorang tapi ramai.<br />
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Pernah tak terfikir mengenai paru-paru kita?<br />
Cuba ukur dengan tali pengukur yang mak-mak selalu ukur untuk jahit baju tu.<br />
Jom sama-sama ukur dada kita, dengan konsep saiz paru-paru kurang sedikit dari saiz ukur lilit dada kita.<br />
Sebut pasal kira-kira ni kan, tergiang-giang kata-kata Professor.<br />
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" Please quantify everything you would like to present." <strike>Kalau patient tak tahu even dah tanya banyak kali, macam mana? Kiciwa lagi </strike></blockquote>
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Okay jom kita sambung berbicara mengenai paru-paru.<br />
Apa fungsi paru-paru? Paru-paru adalah organ badan yang sangat penting untuk pengaliran udara terutamanya oksigen ke dalam badan melalui proses yang sangat rumit dan tersangat details. Subhanallah, sesungguhnya tidak Allah ciptakan sesuatu dengan sia-sia malahan dicipta dengan penuh rahmat dan kasih-Nya yang melimpah-limpah.<br />
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Acap kali di waktu bangku sekolah, kita terpegun mendengarkan perihal paru-paru. Meskipun dilihat kecil saiznya, tapi hakikat penciptaannya melangkaui seluas padang bola sepak.<br />
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Lepas dah belajar medicine, lagi lah banyak berkenalan pasal paru-paru. Dari asal-usul kejadiannya sehingga ke segala jenis penyakit yang boleh timbul seandainya ciptaan Allah ini terganggu fungsinya sama ada secara sengaja atau tidak sengaja.<br />
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Dari segi lokasinya dalam 'thorax', dari segi bentuknya. Terlalu banyak untuk dicoret di sini. Sesapa yang interested untuk belajar, boleh klik sini<br />
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<a href="http://teachmeanatomy.info/thorax/organs/lungs/" target="_blank">Mari Belajar Mengenai Paru-paru</a> </blockquote>
Itulah perumpamaan yang boleh Nazual perkatakan, tetapi memandangkan ia terlalu panjang dan seorang Nazual tidaklah begitu gemar untuk bercakap panjang lebar meskipun memang dah bercakap banyak.<br />
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Diri saya sebenar adalah yang menulis, bukan yang bercakap.<br />
Wallahualam.<br />
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A house that became a home.<br />
Nazual Zulkepli.<br />
Independent lady with such a complex thinking.<br />
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P/s: Sequel of Of Vanilla Latte and Hazelnut Praline will be out soon, doakan rajin sikit nak menulis. HahaMWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-55474555007796533192017-01-02T14:30:00.001-08:002017-01-02T14:30:36.950-08:00Akhirnya Selamat Pulang ke Tanah AirTerbangun di tengah malam lagi.<br />
5.30am.<br />
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I should get up from bed by now but yeah, can I just get another few more hours of sleeping?<br />
And I did.<br />
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but manage to get ready before the taxi arrived.<br />
Flight from London Heathrow to Kuala Lumpur, transit in Dubai for about 7.30minutes (sepatutnya).<br />
Berjaya check in dan wrapped luggage yang dah pecah masa flight from Dublin to Bristol.<br />
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Alhamdulillah Allah permudahkan segala urusan.<br />
Dan akhirnya sahabat peneman sampai the exact moment dah settle everything.<br />
Last time minum Costa, and having their lovely sandwich.<br />
Betullah kata kak Fatin, memang Costa dah officially jadi a part of post JUMS' treat.<br />
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Masa masuk untuk security check in, berlari sebab dah lambat nak claim VAT. Tapi bila dah sampai turn, kena pergi cop Kastam pulak, nak menangis rasa sebab dah lama kot beratur. Pergi kat Kastam, beratur panjang lagi and yet I got another 10 minutes before the gate for boarding closed.<br />
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Tanpa fikir panjang, berlari ke boarding gate, Allahu baru perasan gate paling hujung.<br />
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Alhamdulillah managed to be there on time and yet jumpa a family of Malaysians ( tak tahu kenapa tapi setiap kali jumpa family Malaysians rasa safe sikit. Rasanya semua yang duduk overseas rasa macam ni).<br />
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Flight delayed sebab London foggy sangat, but yeah pilot managed to arrive in Dubai awal tapi sebab awal sangat, terpaksa tunggu sampai gate available. Kaki dah cramp, and I only managed to sleep for a few hours.<br />
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Keluar je dari plane, tengah beratur untul security check in, dapat email flight delayed 2 jam. TWO HOUR? Terus ke kaunter sebab memang kena minta new boarding pass.<br />
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Terus ke Terminal A sebab bajetnya nak sambung tidur tapi end up ke toilet, brush tooth and clean my face pastu lepak kat McDonald sambil tengok Legend of Blue Sea.<br />
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Entah.<br />
Lepas daurah tempoh hari dah takde mood nak tengok Kdrama.<br />
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End up berbual dengan sorang pak cik.<br />
He's currently working in Qatar, and he advised me to look for job in Dubai/Yaman. Good paid katanya.<br />
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But yeah, I have a different plan.<br />
dan duit bukannya tujuan hidup saya.<br />
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back to my transit in Dubai, I texted Hassan later on. Terlepas peluang nak jejalan area Dubai sebab dah lepas security check in.<br />
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Tunggu boarding gate buka sambil baca buku baru beli. Tengah-tengah tunggu ternampak Dato' Yusof Haslam. Hahaha end up memang sama flight. At first tak tahu pun floor sama, tahu floor sama sebab stewardess tu yang bagitau.<br />
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buat havoc dalam flight en route from Dubai to KL sebab nose bleed makin teruk. After bagitau stewardess nose bleed, darah makin banyak keluar. <PANIC ATTACK><br />
Sampai kat KLIA exact a few minutes before NYC.<br />
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" Setahun tunggu kakak." - Uda.<br />
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Tergelak masa baca WS. Celebrate NYC dalam plane, nampak fireworks kecil sangat.<br />
Tak pe, not really into NYC btw.<br />
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I managed to get my baggages after waiting about 30 minutes, penat tau.<br />
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So yeah, finally home after 1.5 years of being abroad.MWhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09315577616609806977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1761591465228151815.post-61459345092479506122016-11-05T13:01:00.000-07:002016-11-05T13:06:20.643-07:00In The Making of Dr Nurul : Tips Study 1<div class="" data-block="true" data-editor="bkc8a" data-offset-key="62fvi-0-0" style="background-color: white; color: #1d2129; white-space: pre-wrap;">
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<span data-offset-key="kref-0-0"><i><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">3. Adik Comel (nama samaran) minat sangat medic, tapi adik dengar, budak medic ni takde life, takde masa dengan family. Betul ke akak? </span></i></span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="kref-0-0"><span style="background-color: white; color: black; text-align: justify; white-space: normal;"><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Alhamdulillah diberi kesempatan dalam kesibukan amanah sebagai seorang pelajar, yang berhempas pulas untuk peperiksaan tempoh hari. </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Selepas down failed satu module, semalam dengan gembira keluar dari exam hall meskipun rasa nak merangkak balik rumah. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Sampai ada senior tanya, " Okay tak exam? " sebab muka macam nak bunuh orang. Last-last terpaksa ponteng MDT session sbb dah severe sampai takleh bangun. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Okay finished. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Back to soalan adik tadi, Nazual macam hmm kejap. How to put these to simple words where everyone understand and benefits it, inshaAllah. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">1. Untuk study tips, Nazual cadangkan buat test untuk tahu which learning style mana suits you the best. Commonly, kita akan tiga main method of study:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">This is the basic skills which everyone be aware of, so go for this test, online or jumpa kaunselor untuk tahu the best style for you study skills. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Okay, kat sini ada satu website untuk korang test, learning style korang: <a href="http://www.educationplanner.org/students/self-assessments/learning-styles-quiz.shtml" target="_blank">Learning Style Test</a></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Untuk Nazual, I am Visual/Kinestatic Learner. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Which means, duk dalam kelas, dengar je lectures, is not WORKING for me. As soon I realised my learning styles, I changed a lot of things like instead of just listening, I will write down notes/mindmap the learning outcomes of that particular lectures. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">If you are a visual learner, you learn by reading or seeing pictures. You understand and remember things by sight. You can picture what you are learning in your head, and you learn best by using methods that are primarily visual. You like to see what you are learning.</span></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">As a visual learner, you are usually neat and clean. You often close your eyes to visualize or remember something, and you will find something to watch if you become bored. You may have difficulty with spoken directions and may be easily distracted by sounds. You are attracted to color and to spoken language (like stories) that is rich in imagery.<br />Here are some things that visual learners like you can do to learn better:</span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Sit near the front of the classroom. (It won't mean you're the teacher's pet! </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Have your eyesight checked on a regular basis.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Use flashcards to learn new words.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Try to visualize things that you hear or things that are read to you.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Write down key words, ideas, or instructions.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Draw pictures to help explain new concepts and then explain the pictures.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Color code things.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Avoid distractions during study times.</span></li>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">If you are a tactile learner, you learn by touching and doing. You understand and remember things through physical movement. You are a "hands-on" learner who prefers to touch, move, build, or draw what you learn, and you tend to learn better when some type of physical activity is involved. You need to be active and take frequent breaks, you often speak with your hands and with gestures, and you may have difficulty sitting still.<br />As a tactile learner, you like to take things apart and put things together, and you tend to find reasons to tinker or move around when you become bored. You may be very well coordinated and have good athletic ability. You can easily remember things that were done but may have difficulty remembering what you saw or heard in the process. You often communicate by touching, and you appreciate physically expressed forms of encouragement, such as a pat on the back.<br />Here are some things that tactile learners like you can do to learn better:</span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Participate in activities that involve touching, building, moving, or drawing.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Do lots of hands-on activities like completing art projects, taking walks, or acting out stories.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">It's <abbr style="border-bottom-width: 0px;" title="O K">OK</abbr> to chew gum, walk around, or rock in a chair while reading or studying.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Use flashcards and arrange them in groups to show relationships between ideas.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Trace words with your finger to learn spelling (finger spelling).</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Take frequent breaks during reading or studying periods (frequent, but not long).</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">It's <abbr style="border-bottom-width: 0px;" title="O K">OK</abbr> to tap a pencil, shake your foot, or hold on to something while learning.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Use a computer to reinforce learning through the sense of touch.</span></li>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Specifically, once you know your learning styles, work out on how you can use your style in maximise your study. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">To be honest, setiap insan telah Allah jadikan berbeza antara satu sama lain, samada physical mahupun mentally. Jangan main copy paste manusia/idola-idola/role model yang anda rasa sesuai sedangkan learning styles mereka berbeza dengan anda. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Tapi, sebagai seorang yang tak begitu genius, Nazual boleh a bit of tips macam nak kuasai subjek-subjek sains. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Nazual secara jujurnya bukanlah pelajar yang cemerlang, segala nikmat results yang dikatakan hebat adalah nikmat dari Allah semata-mata melalui rahmatNya dan doa orang sekeliling, termasuklah parents and cikgu-cikgu. </span></div>
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<li><span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">this is my favourite subject back in school, I used to failed Addmath for the last exam Form 4, dahlah masuk ranking SBP, menangis tak berlagu tapi cikgu Addmath dengan clear-nya cakap kat Nazual " Saya tak akan luluskan awak."</span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">faham konsep dan prinsip in every subtopics. </span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">practice and practice. Banyakkan bertanya kepada cikgu-cikgu or your friends yang faham and terer Addmath, especially bank soalan Past Years papers @ soalan trial SBP/MARA. memang sangat membantu. </span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">JANGAN PERNAH MALU untuk bertanya, nanti takde orang ingatnya awk tanya soalan mcm org bodoh, cause you will be excel in your study</span></span></li>
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<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">subjek yang paling tak digemari, walaupun tak pernah failed masa SPM, tapi masa Alevel, subjek ni lah paling teruk markahnya T____T</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">lebih kurang sama macam AddMath, cuma kena banyak reading and buat nota ringkas based on apa yang kita faham</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">buat banyak soalan, refer to your friends and cikgu-cikgu kalau ada concept yang kita tak faham. </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">and suka untuk Nazual highlight, siapa kata budak medic tak perlu belajar physics, YOU NEED IT to understand physiology better</span></li>
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<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">banyak-kan membaca dan tulis nota based on apa yang kita faham </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">what I did before, I read textbooks and a few reference books, which to expand more knowledge so I could grab the core of learning outcomes </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Nazual tak galakkan hafal sebijik-bijik, faham objektif pembelajaran then cuba kait-kan antara satu sama lain. So at the end this process, kenal pasti apa yang patut kita faham dan jelas.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">try test diri sendiri dengan soalan2 lazim, sampai satu tahap, you can definitely answer it without referring to textbooks. </span></li>
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<span style="color: #1d2129; font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">Apa pun, berbalik kembali kepada learning style masing-masing. Ada orang lagi senang faham bila orang explain, but some such as me, lagi faham bila baca banyak buku lepas confused then tanya cikgu. I will try to relate all those points together in one piece. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #1d2129; font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">2. Macam mana nak rajin study? </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #1d2129; font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">Allahu, sejujurnya, akak ni takdelah rajin sangat study. Banyak tidur dengan main-main sebenarnya ( Astaghfirullah) </span></span><br />
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1.Planning and counting days. Antara salah sebab kita jadi malas, bila kita tak rasa pressure. So bila kita buat headcount days and planning for each day, kita akan nampak and rasa betapa kita sebenarnya kesuntukan masa. Plus, planning sangat membantu untuk kita balance antara study dan kerja-kerja persatuan ataupun kerja-kerja tarbiyah.</blockquote>
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2. This is what I did whenever I start being lazy and reluctant to study, banyakkan membaca bahan-bahan tarbiyah untuk meniup kembali semangat-semangat kemalasan, kadang-kadang Nazual baca sirah-sirah para sahabiyah, and reflect it upon myself, sedangkan para sahabat yang dijanjikan syurga, diaorang still ongoing mencari pahala untuk ke syurga. Sedangkan kita, dah lah tak dijamin syurga, memang clear banyak buat kerja melagha, still rasa malas untuk study? Not to mention kerja-kerja dakwah & tarbiyah.</blockquote>
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3. Kadang-kadang kita bukan rasa malas, tapi just nak rehat. Go and get a rest! Buat apa-apa aktiviti yang berfaedah like jogging, baca buku, main sports. Anything as long it can benefit you and increase your stamina/knowledge</blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">3. Budak medic takde life? Eh?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Up to now, Nazual still wondering, apa sebenarnya yang dimaksudkan dengan takde life? Cause I enjoying medicine so much, which even I ever been ask again, I definitely choose Medicine. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Buatlah course apa-pun, you definitely will be busy and sometimes not even have time to enjoy yourselves, but as I mentioned before, planning does help a lot. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">And know where to prioritise stuffs. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Bahagi masa dan prioritise apa yang penting dalam urusan yang penting. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">And one more, kalau adik-adik rasa interested sangat dengan medicine, dan memang nak further your degree in MBBS, akak galakkan adik-adik banyak-kan membaca. Tanamkan minat untuk membaca dan ada kemahuan untuk mencari sebanyak mungkin ilmu, bukan untuk dibanggakan tapi untuk melahirkan rasa rendah diri dalam hati serta membantu kita untuk menjadi seorang Muslim yang sejati. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Wallahualam. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Setakat ini sahaja mampu mencoretkan jawapan. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Sesungguhnya yang baik itu datang dari Allah SWT, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">dan yang buruk itu datang dari kelemahan Nazual sendiri. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Jazakallahu khair. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Nazual Zulkepli</span><br />
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