Penemuan Hidayah

Assalamualaikum and regards to all readers,
may Allah bless every single of you and may all of you having such a nice day there.
being too happy doesn't mean you will face any difficulties in your life because,

A life without difficulty, is not called as a life

Tottally agreed with this statement wheres, I'm myself, i found hidayah by difficulties my face in my life. Starting when my dearest little brother's death. and alhamdullilah, He gives me many ways to release myself from burden.

and yet, everything happen for reasons right? well, as everyone have know, I'm not so sure, who's the one spread the news, I'm having treatment with my orthodontics specialist for my braces. Will be wearing insyaAllah next month, due to uneven, miserable arrangement of tooth and cause so much trouble whenever I want to eat apple.
It's start when I'm plan my journey to KTM Subang., I'm who I am. Ofcourse, seriously, this girl is not like others girls, please, i'm not the one who like to have someone accompany me everywhere I go. I love to be alone, pfttt...forever alone. I'm trying to be independent cause I know, there will certain time, I have to be alone. and after meeting with Bong and project managers of SEMOA Charity Dinner, I waited for Marc as I asked him wether he could send me to KTM or not. I'm scare when I had to passed the housing area. scary. too many foreigners. and there's one guys said like this to me, almost like this,

" Kenapa tak mintak Izzat hantarkan pegi station?"
" Aku malu la nak mintak tolong orang. Serious aku malu."
" .......nanti dah jadi apa2 kat engkau baru nak menyesal.......bawalah malu kau tu, ego......"
" Kau ni...."=="

Then I went to surau, sungguh, aku tak ego. i'm not the one yang egomaniac, I'm really really....serious malu nak minta tolong. While crying, I asked from Him,

"ya Allah, Engkaulah sebaik-baik sandaran Ya Agung. Kurniakanlah aku perlindungan dari perbuatan jahat. dan peliharakanlah maruah aku."

After Marc and Tasha send me to Carrefour Subang, I start walked alone heading to Padang Jawa Station then take cab straight to Shah Alam Bus Terminal. and that taxi driver, Oh my God, ini rezeki Allah mahu kasi, he just take a few for the fees. Alhamdulillah. abaikan cerita di sini. actually I'm so scare to take the bus alone, walked alone, but I'm surely confidence, Allah's there for me. anytime, anywhere.
The main one was after the bus heading to Jerteh. I try to text my mum, just to inform her that I'm already in Jerteh but then, battery EMPTY. That text surely won't be deliver to my mum. and dengan tersengguk-sengguk, turunlah aku ke tingkat bawah bas, then the driver recognized me as I'm regular customer of Perdana Express. that uncle asked me to wait at gate of the mosque, it's quite safe there.
Upon the bus leaving me alone, at middle of small town, without anybody around and usefulness phone. I'm started to worry and wondering either the car passed the road was my mum or not. and it's not my mum. then start la action yang tak disukai. marah-marah. campak phone atas jalan. ntah pe-pe. then I looked at the tower of the mosque. ya Allah, i shouldn't do that. ya Allah. teringat mimpi before tersedar di bandar Jerteh, there's a lady asked me to recite Ayatul Kursi as much as I can. apa lagi, ulang baca Ayat Kursi and alMathurat berulang kali. tapi dah lebih setengah jam tunggu, aku kena cari public phone to make a call. Just a call. Took the risk, berjalan almost 200 meter ke arah pasar, just nak guna public phone. tengah-tengah jalan, there's someone talked behind that big tree tp buat tak endah jelah. Hehehe. Sampai-sampai kat public phone, dua-dua rosak. bengang. then patah balik pegi masjid tu dgn harapan ummi's there. tapi lain pulak yang muncul. sebilangan mat rempit. memang bala. siap stop motor hon lagi. and I started to pray for my safety and recite Ayatul Kursi. tengah-tengah bising, mat rempit tu senyap, siap bagi ruang nak lintas jalan.
nak nangis je masa tu, Thanks Allah. Thanks a lot.
tengok kat masjid, orang dah start penuhkan masjid, for Subuh prayer. Ambil kesempatan tu untuk berjemaah. siap pakai telekung, nak charge phone, nak text umi dah sampai and nak solat dulu. Tetiba, my lovely youngest brother masuk dalam masjid. Ya Allah, automatik aku peluk adik. mmg nak nangis.
and this story, jumpa mat rempit semua tu, I don't want to story it to umi. I know she will cry and worry about me. at along the that moment, I just hope, ummi was not trouble because of that. but surely, as a mum, she's. She hadn't take nap even for moment, worried about me.

Ya Allah, I found you in my difficulties that given by you. Then, I hope this will grow up so that I can be the real muslimah warrior for the sake of Islam. and by this, I surely, having You My Lord by my side is already enough. It's surely enough. Alhamdulillah.

Wallahualam.
Night. :)