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“ Sesungguhnya dalam penciptaan langit dan bumi dan silih bergantinya malam dan siang terdapat tanda-tanda (kebesaran Allah) bagi orang yang berakal. “
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Baru 30 minit mendaki, dah start penat sampai berpeluh-peluh. Saat tengah kepenatan dek stamina yang secebis, maka bermula perang dingin dengan diri sendiri.
Yang akhirnya terluah sepanjang mendaki bilamana terasa tiada tenaga hatta secebis, sampai tahap member kena tolak perlahan-lahan dari belakang.
I can almost see itThat dream I'm dreaming butThere's a voice inside my head sayingYou'll never reach it,Every step I'm taking,Every move I make feelsLost with no directionMy faith is shaking but IGotta keep tryingGotta keep my head held high
“ Why did I sign up for this trip at the first place?” direct to the project manager. Tapi tangan dan kaki masih meneruskan perjalanan. Dengan kata-kata semangat dari Sarah, “ Korang sekejap je lagi….” when the truth is we still got an hour more to hike!
There's always gonna be another mountainI'm always gonna wanna make it moveAlways gonna be an uphill battleSometimes I'm gonna have to loseAin't about how fast I get thereAin't about what's waiting on the other sideIt's the climb
Why Nazual? Why did you push yourself to the limit!
Sampai saja kat puncak gunung, dah syuruk. Matahari dah start naik, langit yang gelap malam hanya diterangi bintang-bintang kini bertukar warna kemerah-merahan.
Subhanallah! Pemandangan yang tersangat indah! Yang mendamaikan hati, ditemani soundtrack ‘Berdua Lebih Baik’ dari teman-teman.
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“ Life is a struggle, and the struggles are real.”
Dah masuk tahun keempat pengajian. Lagi setahun lebih perjalanan ini. Terasa masih diawan-awangan.
Terasa seperti semalam struggle final exam ALevel, struggle interview untuk kos pengajian perubatan. Dan seperti semalam juga struggle untuk dapatkan scholarship.
Terasa seperti semalam struggle final exam ALevel, struggle interview untuk kos pengajian perubatan. Dan seperti semalam juga struggle untuk dapatkan scholarship.
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Terasa seperti semalam jua, fail paper exam. Meskipun dah penat stay up hatta tak tidur untuk mengulang kaji.
The struggles I'm facingThe chances I'm takingSometimes might knock me down butNo I'm not breakingI may not know itBut these are the moments thatI'm going to remember most yeahJust got to keep goingAnd II gotta be strongJust keep pushing on, 'cause
Tapi mengapa?
Mengapa sering kali terasa perjalanan ini terlalu panjang?
Sedang teman yang lain sudah pun tamat perjuangan, sekarang sudah pun berkerjaya.
Mengapa semakin hari semakin terasa ilmu yang ada hakikatnya hanya sedikit, dan masih memerlukan seribu daya usaha lagi.
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It’s okay.
Welcome to the reality of being a medical student. (evil laugh).
This journey indeed, a super long journey.
You can’t be alone. You need a group of supporters. Be it your parents, families or friends.
Ada kala, kita mampu berjalan keseorangan.
Tapi selalunya,
Kita tetap memerlukan seseorang untuk push ke hadapan.
Kita memerlukan seseorang untuk mengajak kita terus mara.
Kita memerlukan sokongan untuk terus bergerak.
There's always gonna be another mountainI'm always gonna wanna make it moveAlways gonna be an uphill battleSometimes I'm gonna have to loseAin't about how fast I get thereAin't about what's waiting on the other sideIt's the climb (yeah)
It took me a while to notice how our hiking trip taught us on this.
As everyone really start wondering, why medicine why not others?
And why did not everyone in our circles seems to understand the struggles of medical student?
I myself find it hard to express my thoughts to the family members (aunties, uncles and cousins) because they don't really understand the struggles. Even few of my friends yang takde anyone in medical background also mentioned of the same things.
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Okay let take the climbing as a metaphor.
Bayangkan course yang berbeza tu macam level kesusahan untuk hiking. Tak semua mountain shares the exact same difficulty. Some are easy to climb and some aren't. Some took less than a hour, some take hours to arrived. Some even took months to arrive okay, like Mt Everest etc.
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Permulaan mendaki tu sendiri pun kita dah tertanya-tanya, " Mampukah aku?" Sama juga masa the exact date you register as a medical student, " Mampu kah aku? Sedang semua senior-senior hatta doktor-doktor yang aku jumpa semua cakap susah sangat."
There's always gonna be another mountainI'm always gonna wanna make it moveAlways gonna be a uphill battleSometimes you gonna have to loseAin't about how fast I get thereAin't about what's waiting on the other sideIt's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)
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Start of the journey, about half an hour, you started sweating (macam marathon 1000km) and wondering why did you agree for this. Or worst part, you eventually stop.
First year, second year journey. Belajar segala anatomy and physiology. Basic physiology, then wonder kenapa kena belajar benda-benda biomedical ni? Chemistry stuff, tu tak kira lagi ada lecturer hipster explain physiology pakai theory physics.
It just an introduction. A little bit of future waiting ahead.
Mula-mula track lawa lagi, steep pun still boleh jalan macam biasa, but as you go even further, jalan dah tak nampak macam jalan.
Nampak batu dan pokok je, untuk kau support diri sendiri.
Keep on movingKeep climbingKeep the faith babyIt's all aboutIt's all aboutThe climbKeep the faithKeep your faith
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You will get tired and demotivated in the journey.
That's why you need crowd to support and push you.
I personally feel that this crowd should be people who understand your struggles and willing to be with you all the time.
As being in medical life, you will constantly experience up and down, even in a single day.
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Well, as you climbing, you will constantly motivate yourself on the view once you reach the top.
Cantiknya.
Tenangnya.
MashaAllah tak terungkap kata-kata.
Tapi cantiknya tak bermakna tak hadapi kesusahan time kat atas puncak.
Masa hiking Mt Baling, kat puncak tu batu-batu banyak. Kena jalan perlahan-lahan takut jatuh.
And I bet the same goes once I graduated.
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Hidup tak akan pernah terhenti dengan ujian dan ujian.
Sampai saat nafas terhenti, roh berpisah dengan jasad.
Sampai akhirnya nanti, Allah janjikan ujian.
Samaada ujian kesusahan atau ujian kesenangan.
Yang pasti, puncak destinasi seorang Muslim bukan sekadar di dunia,
tapi di akhirat.
Di syurga-Nya kekal.
Allahualam.
Nazual Zulkepli
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