A Breath of Housemanship

Bismillah.

Its been such a long break.
I honestly drain out of energy to write a single sentence.
But writing is one of the way to convey the stress.

Have been started my housemanship for about 1 month (approximately), 1 month of life as houseman.
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Well, since our housemanship start during RMO, the workload reduced a lot.
And we idk called as unfortunate enough to feel the hectic life as surgical houseman? LOL
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And because of that, I tend to learn a little by day.
It made me slower learner, and sometimes frustrating myself.
Ini adalah contoh bila realiti tak selari dengan program set up in the brain.
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I aim for an A, but my current performance only able to vibe up till B-.
And today, I got emotionally affected with my shortcomings.
Well, I might need a consultation later on how to improve myself (after I have done self reflection)
But it takes courage to go forward and seek for help.
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May Allah ease me.
May Allah bless me with abundance of knowledge.
May Allah made me the a grateful servant of Him.

Amin.